Monday, April 07, 2008
A reason to live for...
He was in his start of Bachelor's and she was in end of master's...Everytime he wanted to tell her about his feeling..he just couldn't muster the courage to tell her...
She was kinnda hottie in the college..starting from the freshers to college caps all had secret desires for her..he always thought..wat's new in me..may be she knew me form my childhood days..but she may had known many...she was so proud of her beauty that actually she never cared for any of the feelings towards her..he understood this coz he knew if she started caring she actually will have a whole yellow book to care about...No he had her moments wid her..when he was assigned to volunteer as security for the college fest..and she said hiii to him..it was the word which echoed still in his mind...
He shrugged and smiled. He was wondering why the sudden thought of her. He smiled again remembering he do this quite often.
He was all ready for the interview..seven long years had passed since..he was now among the topmost independent web developers ..and he had go this offer letter for the topmost company in web developing...he checked his bag..everything was ready..he is ready to fire up....
He couldn't believe that actually it was her the HR Manager in front of him..
he was feeling weak in his knees..it was too much for him to handle...she hadn't changed a bit..she was the same...same smile..same fragrance around her...
"God! you haven't changed your perfume too.."
"Excuse me" she was not able to make out anything of his mumble...
"Nothing mam! Actually I am feeling a little nervous."
" Do I know you from before?"
"Oh God!! she actually remembers me..." , he thought.
"Yes Mam! We were in same society and we were in same college too"
" Is this You? Vishu...? Oh my God! u changed a lot..who can say that it's the same frail cute boy..u have actually grown up to a hunk ..u kno dat?? "
" Yes." " Oh! I mean no!" " May be"....He was not at all prepared for this interview.
" You are just perfect for here!" she was checking his credential.
" what are you looking at?" wen she caught him staring her..
" Nothing! I am sorry..actually I was not..but m sorry" his words got muffled as She caught him the moment he raised her eyes from her fingers on tables to her face...actually she caught him the exact second when his eyes were on her cleavage while moving up from her fingers to her face..
"You boys! you people never changed...still the same as you were in college" she laughed..
" I am sorry." he got that point that he cant explain it to her and moreover her laughter was more captivating than her whole persona.
" You are selected!" " But that doesn't mean that I approved you of checking me up." she gave a nice grin.
" I am sorry! Oh! I meant thank you"
"Thank you for wat?" she asked it a little loud.
" No!I meant..I am not thank you" "I meant for the job." He was actually dying of embarrassment of getting caught in wrong action. He wanted to get off the chair and kill himself.
" Oh! sit..we havn't discussed your work " "So, where in town?"
"Actually! I was not very sure of the job..so didn't thought about it"
"I will arrange for you company house for now..till you get a nice place." "What are you doing tonight?" "Dinner??"
Wat's that..did she said dinner..Is he actually going for a date wid the lady of his dreams..
"I have a lot to catch up with you."she asked, " Vishu! You Ok?"
"Yeah! Dinner is good...I will pay. I insist"
"Who told you that I was gonna pay?" " You got the job! it's your treat time" She started laughing
" Yeah! It was meant that only". He was again caught off guard! He wanted to kill himself for saying about paying and all....
6 years had passed since then. He was standing at Flower shop. Thoughts started flying over again in his head.
" Vishu! Movie today?." "Best hall in town!" she smiled. "Pick me up at seven. Will you?"
"Yeah Shalini! Sure". He smiled.
Six months had passed since his joining and it was their 5 th official date, though they had several luncheons.
He went to her home. She opened the door.. she was not ready yet. "Is she not well! May be she dropped the movie plan" thoughts started flying but was abruptly stopped by the sound followed by her shriek "Oh God! my popcorns!"
"Wat's that..movie in her house." He never entered her house..he used to pick her up from doors only, and mostly she used to pick him up from his apartment, as he hadn't had his car until last week.
"Godfather" " you told me it's your fav"
"But I think we had to fetch up the popkorn first". He laughed as he looked at the kitchen floor.
"Yeah! it is a mess! jus like me" she looked at her disheveled hairs.
"No! you are looking beautiful!. He smiled, removing the hairs from her face.
"Don't you dare flirt with me." she smiled back.
Movie started. She snuggled up to him and took a snap of them wid her camera. "I just don't want to miss the moment. ", she smiled and he caressed her hairs falling on her face.
An hour past she was cuddled up in his arms and actually got asleep. He couldn't believe that he was actually watching the movie for last one hour and didn't noticed that she had fallen asleep in his arms. He slowly went for the remote and switched it off. He didn't wanted her to get awake by gunshots of the movie he had watched a thousand time.
She was looking so beautiful asleep in his arms. Minutes later she opened her eyes and found him looking her face. " I told you. You don't have permission to stare" she smiled.
No! Actually! you were looking so be.." His words muffled as he found her lips on his. They kissed. Every minute was like an eternity to him. They cuddled up. She removed his shirt and put his hands on her.
"wat's dat? r u a virgin?" she was laughing heartily when he removed his hand from her.
"No!" He screamed, then a moment later " Yeah! I am.. ". He was caught again off guard.
"Oh! that's sweet." she kissed him again, only knowing that she had to take the lead then.
They made love. She couldn't believe that he was actually asking her then, " Is it paining?" she was smiling thinking about the wonderful moment after so long in her alone life.
" Who is that?? " he looked at the photo frame and asked surprisingly.
"My husband! He died three months of our marriage 3 years back!" "He was returning and got in a hit and run case in Florida." she couldn't believe that she was crying, it was so long. He was his love for 2 years before they got married against his and her families wishes.
He held her in his arms and kissed her on her forehead.After a moment of silence
"I am sorry!" " I was drunk that day". " I didn't saw him until he was hit. I was so drunk and afraid"
"Get out!" "Get out Vishal." " I don't want to see you anymore"
He slowly got up and moved out. He moved out her life the very next morning.He wrote her a one liner and he dropped at her doorsteps and moved out...
"I am sorry! I love you and will miss you"
It started raining! The monsoon had just hit the city. He paid for the flowers. He got the letter three days back from a lawyer. He opened for checking the address. His eyes filled up wid tears as he caught the line.
" Shalini Verma died of cancer last week and her Will make you a trustee for the the property she left behind. "
He folded back the letter, called for the cab.
"Saint Patrick School."
An hour later. He was sitting in the Principals office.
"Sir! She is Vinni Verma"
He looked back towards the door. A little girl was standing there. She was a little doll with same hairs and same eyes. He went to her and hugged her and handed her the flowers.
" Mommy told me to give it to my daddy when he will come to take me home "
" How do you know me sweetheart? "
She handed him the envelope. It had the same photograph, that they had taken on that night, wid a line written on it's back, "Mommy loves you baby! " .
A note fell from the envelope. He picked it up and opened and found his own handwriting in it..
"I am sorry! I love you and will miss you"
with an added note..
"You could had waited! You snatched my love twice. Just take care of my last love. She misses you just like I missed you"
He held her up in his arms. He found his love back once again in his life and a reason to live for..