Saturday, November 10, 2012

What is Freeedom of Expression and Speech

Freedom of Expression do not give you license to throw dirt.. Remember that!!!

Recently, it has become a fashion among old guys losing their skill to earn popularity have resorted to cheap trickery of belittling public figures whom people adore and idolize...

Not  naming those publicity seeking suckers ( as I do not want to give them any publicity from my blog) I like to tell them that India is not going to tolerate their hunger for cheap publicity.

One can never have enough credential unless he belongs to the same era and same class of those people...

Just by hiding behind freedom of expression do not let anyone the right to talk defamatory about any person if he is not indicted by court of law..

One should read the article 19 expressing Freedom of expression  in clause 1 subclause (a) and clause 2...which states that...

Protection of certain rights regarding freedom of speech etc
(1) All citizens shall have the right
(a) to freedom of speech and expression;
(2)  Nothing in sub clause (a) of clause ( 1 ) shall affect the operation of any existing law, or prevent the State from making any law, in so far as such law imposes reasonable restrictions on the exercise of the right conferred by the said sub clause in the interests of the sovereignty and integrity of India, the security of the State, friendly relations with foreign States, public order, decency or morality or in relation to contempt of court, defamation or incitement to an offence

The rights clearly talks about the illegality of the rights when some one targets fame and attacks the sovereignty of India..so one one need to understand that talking about religious figures and national heroes who are worshiped and who have influenced deeply the culture of any part of India...Be it Ram, Gurus of Sikh religion, Mahatma Gandhi, Rabindranath Tagore and many others national heroes....

About recent defamatory statement about Rabindranath and Vivekanand... It is really shameful for those ignorant persons to defame such heroes for cheap publicity... they should learn to be of that stature before commenting on the work of these heroes... There was a time when people do not have TVs, access to internet and freedom of press..the only things that people got their inspiration from were the literatures, poetry, plays and songs. I am sure Britisher's didn't run away scared reading poetry .. but  they were certainly afraid of the motivated and inspired Indians..it is not my bengali blood boiling.. but it is my Indian blood boiling ..I would have surely punched anyone who said defamatory about Gurus and other national heroes too...

PS: A request to Govt. of India ....Please take suitable action against these morons and check this habit of old crooked fellows to hide behind the freedom of expression...


Monday, October 08, 2012

The Girl next door



I met her first two years back. She was just a cute girl in her school dress. She smiled at me with a very cute smile. She even got dimples on her cheeks. I smiled back. Her friend was shouting at loud that it’s her birthday.  I wished her birthday. The “thank you” she said was just like a sweetener.

Few more days passed, we met again. She smiled at me.  I smiled back but her expression changed to a sterner look. So I turned myself away and passed on.

From then, she always looks at me with an expressionless face. She keeps on staring till I pass her. She had this same expressionless face for the last two years. But she keeps on staring. If I am stopping for getting something from any shop, she makes it convenient to stop there.

I realized that this girl has fallen for me but she is scared to ask. And she being a teenager is not going to be the one I am going to fall for. So, I maintained a distance from her.

But yesterday, she came to me and asked me my name. Her voice is now much like a lady. I answered but was careful not to give her any expression or false hope.  She smiled and I melted. I smiled back.

Damn!!! What’s wrong with me? I know, it is just wrong in so many levels but she is so beautiful and serene.  A part of my brain, wants to ask her out for a date but then I am not going to be staying here longer, so the other part of my brain is just warning me to stay away from her. Not good for me and certainly not good for her.

So, I am just going to leave it on fate but I am happy for a fact that beautiful girls still fall for me. I don’t know her name but she is the girl next door...

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Cinnamon Poached chicken with Honey dressing

Lately, I am so engrossed in  cooking beautiful delicacies... I am always thankful to the God that I am free from any food allergy.. So I cook what I want ...but then all of us are not so fortunate.. My dad and sister can't eat prawns..many of friends cannot have eggplants..Since, it is a very selective allergy people tend to avoid them and stay better but some of us are not that fortunate. Recently, I heard one little girl has a rare form of food allergy..Docs have kept her in a tightly bound food routine..

But then, some of my friends started an initiative for that little girl by preparing  beautiful delicacy with the items she is allowed to eat.

So I decided to wear my thinking cap to cook something wonderful for her...

Cinnamon poached Chicken with Honey dressing..

Ingredients :
Cinnamon -2 sticks
Bay leaves - 2
Salt
Sugar - 1 tsp
Chicken - 200 gms
Ginger- 1 inch julienned
Shallot - 1 finely chopped
Black pepper powder- 1 tsp
Olive oil - 1 tbsp
Honey 2 tbsp
Cucumber- salad dressing

The procedure of cooking :

In a vessel, poach some chicken with cinnamon sticks, Bay leaves, salt , sugar, grated ginger and pinch of black pepper powder..15 minutes poaching time is good..







When it is poached, then shred the chicken into bits using a knife and fork.Take 2 tbsp of stock and throw the rest away..






In a pan..heat some olive , caramelize the hallots , julienned ginger with black pepper and pinch of salt.. Once it is done..Pour the poached chicken shreds on it and stir fry it for 1 minutes....then pour the 2 tbsp of stock saved earlier and let it cook till the water dries up in high heat...

Cinnamon Poached chicken with Honey and cucumber dressing
Once, it is ready..plate it in with cucumber salad and Pour 2 tbsp of honey on it just before the serving...

If you go by my personal experience, the flavor of ginger, cinnamon and honey created a beautiful explosion of flavor...

PS: This is my personal signature dish... You are allowed to copy and cook but not copy and post :)

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Book Review : In The Hot Unconscious


Thanks to Preetilata Sarkar, I got into reading books during  journeys. Without any mp3 player plugged in my ears, these books have dual effects. It help me pass the time and simulataneously make me look modern. I am not very sure what others think about it but at least I think reading chicks are intellectually hot.
I met one such girl in this train journey to home.  She was intellectually hot… not so attractive but with the glasses on she was looking very hot…. kind of like the chicks on Bookworm Bitches…(and I am not going to explain you Bookworm Bitches :P) .. So I started a conversation with her…that eventually led to journeys and books on them….  I have been reading  such book "In The Hot Unconscious" by Charles Foster.  So I started our conversation based on the book. Either she was amazed by my depth of understanding… or she was bored of my repeated attempt to woo her…she eventually ended up giving me her number…which I wrote on the bookmark of the book I was reading… After an hour the chick asked me for the book… and changed the bookmarks with hers :-| ..

Anyways.. like I was gonna call her…My phonebook is always full of these random chick numbers…and I even don’t remember anyone of them… :-|

Coming to the book…
"In The Hot Unconscious" by Charles Foster.  The book is a nice read…Based on Charles Foster’s recent India visit… and like every other book of this genre.. the book was based on Religion and its understanding… I don’t know how people write an Indian journey book that reeks of  religious fundamentalism only.... I have read many journey books written on different countries but when it comes to India… the author always ends up explaining the Hindu religion… They have a version of Karma..they write about ‘Bhagwad Gita’ ..about holy rivers..that we Indian never get to have a hold of. The book started with the author’s view… on Christianity..when it shifted to Zen.. I stopped taking it seriously..… Every Indian journey book I ever read... starts with “Eat, Pray, Love” and eventually ends with the same…This was no different...The characters, though very strong… seemed fictional to me… Perhaps!! Being an Indian I never needed to have an encounter with any religious baba giving me preaching to practice Hinduism. However, one thing the author depicted with tremendous success ..and that is..Indian administration.. I am sure that part is not fictional..coz he portrayed the corruption in the system better than anyone without using any abuses.. Overall the book didn’t bore me… it was written in rich English format that needed few glances through dictionaries but was full of humor… The only good thing about the book is that the authors never expressed any single biased opinion about the events… If you are reading it for fun..the book is wonderfully written.. but if you are on for a  fresh perspective…. Find another book...

If you want to have a go at the book.. you can find it in Landmark

Friday, July 13, 2012

Shame - Minor Molested in Assam


Last night I switched on the news channel to find a disgusting news that one minor girl was molested by 20 people in Guwahati that too was not enough they filmed the total molestation and uploaded on YouTube..

Those who are not already aware of the situation.. it happened on Tuesday night when the girl was returning from a nightclub attending a birthday party...The Assam DGP, Jayanta N Chaudhary, said, "The girl had gone to celebrate a friend's birthday... There (at the bar) they had a fight and the management asked them to leave as they were creating a ruckus over there... they came out and some hooligans saw her and tried to take advantage of her... She was assaulted but is not hospitalised... Whatever is there in the law books, we will do accordingly thanks to the coverage of media... They have been a great help."
She was groped by few local goons who started treating the girl as a prostitute...that turned into her being beaten and disrobed... Soon several person of the crowd joined in to make an example of the girl or in short they didn't want to waste the opportunity to molest that young girl who was just a student of class XI... Soon the number rose to 20 or more..and the moral policing became an ordeal for the girl where every guy in the crowd started molesting her like it was their right ...Few of the people tried to abduct that girl to complete their rape fantasy...The police came in after half an hour later to rescue the girl from the place which is on Rajpath and quite a busy locale.  A person some claimed to be a reported filmed the total scene on his camera which was quite a Hi-def for an ordinary mobile camera as the lighting was proper..and the video was uploaded on Youtube the next day...The video was flashed on local news channel which prompted the action that was supposed to happen on that night itself when the Police came in to rescue the girl ... The CM declared that they will gear on the make a women squad to tackle these instances which is now a common thing in North eastern states...

Few years back, a girl was paraded naked when she came out of nightclub in Guwahati in a similar manner where media was busy making TRPs instead of protecting the girl's modesty..

They flashed it like a sensational news with admiration of local moral policing...If the media and the Police made an example of those morons responsible for outraging the girl's modesty..this recent incident wouldn't have occurred... I just feel so sorry for these NE girls and lame NE governments for such instances...

It is really shameful for us ..as being a citizen of a country of so called high modesty .. we molest a girl and watch its video on youtube like it is just an amusement...We treat every girl as prostitute who go to night clubs or attend a late night party.... We need to understand the fact that these girls and women too have freedom like we men to go to clubs and socialize.. coz today she is just a random girl.. but tommorrow if unchecked it will be your mother.. your sister or perhaps you on receiving end of this molesting crowd.. It is high time govt. start to establish a strong line of protection for women.. if it is not going to happen I am sure India will surely be another country with downright degraded moral values with no respect for women like what happens in Soviet liberated countries....

I am sharing this snippets from the video for identification of these morons who need to be put behind the bar... 













If you can identify anyone of the crowd.. Drop a message to your local police station.. it is now our responsibility to nab these culprits to curb this rising menace...Already 4 have been caught..now it is turn of of the other 16 in the crowd....



PS: Do not bother searching on YouTube.. it has already been removed for violation of term...The video is shot by a reporter who tried to help and then he thought to collect it as evidence (yeah!!! getting his TRP high...) and I don't know how it got uploaded to YouTube...but Kya Idea hai Sir jee!!!..You can view the culprits better here...



 

I am not going to upload the original video of the molestation of that girl...but those who are interested can go peep in their mother's or sister's room to view what women hide under their clothes...

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Romance Scam

Do I look like loser ???

I am surely one!!!

I have been getting pretty long mails from a very hot chick from Canada..whom I searched over by my IP tracker to find that she is actually from Nigeria... :P

I am sharing this info.. so that you lonely guys do not fall for the scam...as she may be dangerous or may not be a she at all ... lol...

The first four letters I got from her...I searched in the internet to find that the contents of the letters are very common and have been sent to one more user...I am going to go through with it and see what more fun it actually offers...

Just remember.. go with ur gut feelings.. if you feel that is not true then it is not true....When you get such personalized mail.. just search any random line from it in google search engine.. you will find many people  been scammed already :D

Letter 1
Thanks for getting back to me. Actually i was trying to check out an old lost school friend who shares the same first name with yours but unfortunately he's not on Facebook but your profile appeared on my Facebook page which i read and found very interesting. If i must confess, work has prevented me from socializing. I was recently introduced to Facebook by a friend to curb that. I really don't mind being your friend and knowing you more. Should you feel the same way about my profile too, Please feel free to contact me at anytime
Letter 2
How are you today?,as for me am cool and lonely. and you sound nice .More about me I am single never married with no kids and currently seeking for a relationship, but not rushing myself.I`m 5`7" 134 with a athletic build,mentally stable,physically fit,a bunch of laughs,warm, caring,honest, good listening, God Fearing,and a positive person.Am right now in uk london on a Modeling Seminar and will be back home hopefully in 5 days time.I've got a great sense of humor,I am more conservative politically than liberal.I work hard,and know how to have fun. I am real easy person to talk to and a good listener. I love to play golf and I enjoy chilling` with my friend/family ,I like going to the movies,or watching movies in my room ,I like swimming ,fishing,listening to music and dance to any kind of music, traveling,going bowling and also a good cook.I am a family oriented person.
I am really interested in wanting to know about what makes you the special person you are today,what are your goals,f I want to know more about your family, your background,What do you do for fun, are you an outdoor person and where do you see yourself in the nearest future? I dont wanna be too inquisitive so i'll stop here talk to you latter.
Letter 3
Hi,how are you doing thanks for the email,I really love all you have to say about yourself,I see you have a really bright prospect and i like your outlook on life it really means a lot to me. So tell me what are your what do you think of relationships?.i really want to know about your past relationship.have you ever met anyone off the internet?What was it like?well i have a diverse background my mum from canada while my dad from USA,im the only child of my parent,I grew up mainly in canada cos i had to go there and live with my Aunt after my dad's death and mum got to marry to anotherman .I came down to USA cos i had a job offer, more so to stay with my ground ma before she passed away early this year and moreover i had to have a change of environment from my Aunt who's deeply in drugs and alcohol because i live my life through the word of God and also I have such a strong understanding of what I feel my role in life is suppose to be. my goals and dreams is to have a successful career and to live a good life,and maybe meet someone that believes in unconditional love,sure that cant be complete without a honest husband, someone who know the true meaning of what we call a Family, its really something i have always dreamt of and im really Working hard towards that direction.hope to hear back from you soon.
Letter 4
Thank you so much for getting back in touch with me as it actually made my day!! I know you will think what is a pretty lady like me doing on here .Yes the reason I came on to the internet to find the special person who deserves all the love and passion that makes up my heart and soul is because I do not have the time to meet others out in a public setting,and the fact I feel you can learn so much about someone through letters,as a person has to take there time and think about the words they want to express,so it allows you to gain a better understanding of someone than you would probably otherwise.I have spoken to a couple of people of the internet but i havent met anyone off the internet,i could have met this dude of the internet sometimes back but I chickened out cos i thought it was dangerous and a lot of things happens over the internet ,Well,i see relationships as one of the most natura l things that can happen in life and i believe a good relationship is built on trust, honesty,togetherness and prayers.I have had my fair share of relationships and i have been hurt but it dosent put me off totally its only made me wiser.I have been into just 1 relationship all my life and he was my only sexual partner.We dated each other for 3 years and the relationship ended because of my partner's betrayal and infidelity(cheating)My ex boyfriend was a photographer.I met him in canada where i lived for several years before i relocated to USA.He told me i am a very pretty and will be a very good model after some months we started dating each other and he put me through a modeling training just for 1 week and that was how my modeling career started.We dated other for 2 years after some time he started enrolling other girls like me into same modeling training and he started fucking anything under skirt.I have been going throgh this pains for years but later i had to move on cause the relationship was all about business and i realized he never loved me but was just using me for money.
I was badly hurt when this happened so i decided to move on with my and walk away from him .He never wanted me to do anything other than what he tells me to do,i cant make friends all i do is to stay at home and when he gets a contract then we go for it.
I thank god for my life now cause i am more matured and i know what i want in a man now.
Where others write many people and keep there messages short because they are all about how many they can write, I am the opposite and very selective in whom I choose to write and I like to give them my very best even if it is in a long letter such as this.just to know the type of person who I want to build a friendship with so I am willing to put the time and effort in my messages to show that to you. i hope to hear back from you soon.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

New Entrance policy for IIT JEE 2013

There was much Hullabaloo regarding the entrance examination for 2013. IIT-K, IIT-D, IITK-GP and soon to be IIT BHU was much against the new policy. However, the last word was spoken by Kapil Sibal only.!! Our beloved HRD minister has a tendency to wriggle his ministerial power into anything that starts with Indian.. and he succeeded in this venture too...

Before, I start slamming the new system.. I should tell you the salient features:
  1. There will be two entrance test... Main where all the candidates will have to appear and then there will be Advanced entrance for 1.5 lac student in order of merit. The Advance entrance test will be conducted as per AIEEE standard. No other state joint or AIEEE will be conducted.
  2. Now for entering into IITs, all the candidates will have to be in the top 20 % in their respective board that will be decided by individual board's aggregate performance. Even if they qualify advanced, failing this criterion will result in rejection.
  3. Only one form will be needed to be filled for appearing in the entrance examination and the admission to other colleges such Govt Engg. college and NITs will be via the merit score in the main examination.

Now, the slamming...

Point number 1 is valid enough as IITs need a better aptitude test but of the standard of AIEEE is simply ridiculous. First of all, I was always against this multiple choice system adopted by the recent entrance examinations. Now, the student will have to appear in two such system is completely absurd. I always maintained that without a thorough writing experience, one can not be judged on the basis of aptitude. However, already there are so many IITs that the system has already deteriorated.

But scoring in top 20% is little harsh for the student. When entrance examinations are based on aptitude and higher level of knowledge, the students get very little time to prepare for their respective board examination. The ICSE is known to give marks to students, CBSE is also walking on the same track for many recent years. However, the state boards are very tough. They still do not have infrastructure in most schools to get the student in top 20% and neither they give good marks to them. However, the slam is harder on the coaching institutes sprawling in India as we all know they give methodical training to students making them parrots instead of student. This top 20 % system will definitely hit them hard.

Let's see what happens next... but can I say...This new system Sucks ???? 


Thursday, June 21, 2012

Amazing Human beings

Yeah!! I am utterly  jobless today!! So I thought let's go update the blog.....

Today's topic is Human beings...


Not I am any alien.. but I am always amazed by human being's narcissistic nature... if you do not understand what it is and yet u r reading it just to make you feel knowledgeable..then u are one.. just kidding.. it means human beings  preoccupied with self love ...

You come to someone's life.. you screw it up and then u become busy in your life.. mission accomplished...

I know that is not unusual....it happens with all of us... but what amazes me is the way people explain it to themselves....

I am right.. it needed to be done... I saved from more agonies... like if the other person cares...I get simply perplexed... how can someone pretend that act of being selfish is so selfless.....It is just like giving a toy gun to a kid and taking it away saying he may learn how to use an actual gun later in his life...that is a sheer stupidity.. but then that's what make them survive the guilt of fucking up some one's life....

The narcissistic nature is very predominant in fairer sex.... they make a boy their friend...when they already have a boyfriend... and then they go fuck around with that boy and when the boy is out of his mind for her... she plays the boyfriend card... How can you think about it?? You know I have a boyfriend... Isn't it amazing?? why in the name of holy heaven u need to have a boy as ur friend.. Why can't you make a girl a friend..you wanted someone to care for you apart from your boy friend.. find a girl.. why you have to choose a boy...?? Isn't it amazing ???

Boys are no less.... they have a girlfriend.. they want a change.. they don't have one.. they jump on someone's already happy relationship ...

Why it is not about loving each other?? After all, human beings are noted for the fact called love....


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Reviving the old flame...



Not because I have ample of free time... that I do not have actually.... but I am feeling so guilty that my baby is lying here idle.. 

This is not the first blog break I took.. lately my blog has been more like a public platform to vent out my frustration...I still remember .. the first day I made this blog.. the purpose was to put on a comment on a blog that I searched out while surfing porn....Needless to say that blog imparted a huge impact in my life.. and I started writing..

There has been so many phases and so many affairs that this blog was made witness to... a phase of hopeless love.. a phase of betrayal .. a phase of PDA... and phases  of break up... apart from the phase of political awakening that I often do...

In between, there was a phase when I started earning from it.. made some 10,000 bucks from it too...but then like my usual self.. I got bored and I moved on...but now I am thinking of reviving this old flame..Sadly,  all the bloggers of my circle have moved away  or have stopped blogging altogether..Going to new blog and writing cheesy comments was never my forte..and I know if I don't do that.. I am not going to get any fan following... but then that is the beauty of writing a personal blog.. you just write whatever you like.. and you don't have to give a shit to who is reading it and who is not..
 
The blog is just for me to remember that these significant days were also there in my seemingly insignificant life....

Another thing....at last I read the 'My life story' by Arti di..this Saturday...The book is worth every penny spent on it.. I remember I recharged author's Airtel account to get the book :P .. but it was lying there for a long time.. 

Yes!! I know I am a moron.. but the purpose of buying that book was to support her new venture...but then thanks to Electricity department's load shedding.. I got time to dust the covers of the book...It was worth a read.. 111 pages.. 2 hours of complete bliss.. the book really made me spellbound ... It is written in such a lucid manner that I felt the story happening in front of me.. Believe me !! after reading it.. I was feeling so helpless that I am not able to help the character of the story as she is not real.....The struggle of a girl .. starting from betrayal to love and ending up in betrayal and love is simply awesome... However, the lack of vivid description of love making made me a little disappointed. Not because I love those scenes that I certainly do... but actually when some one reads a love story.. he need those to complete the feeling of reading love... The one character on which the whole story was revolving was not also used too well.. but then it is her first attempt and I am surely not making her compete with the likes of Eric Segal.... I hope, the  next time she comes up with a story.. she will keep these suggestions in her mind...

If you want you can buy the book .. You can visit her site... or buy directly from this link

Hmm!!! reading the post again.. I am feeling so alive.. this is my personal style.. it starts with something and ends up in something.. I guess I still haven't lost my touch...


Monday, April 16, 2012

I was wrong again....


You know the most funny thing about me is that I am mostly right.. Not because I have some intellectual mind.. but because I always calculate my moves for the right path and judgement...Almost all the time, I have heard the same thing that I do not let anyone come near me..May be ...but then I was never wrong in that....as people always tend to leave a scar.. not because they want to hurt you but they always want that you remember their importance.. I did the same to many now I am getting the same from the fate....But then.. I am a human.. I exposed myself just to feel human again ...and I  know myself .....I can reweave my web of protection...so that none can leave any scar....I allowed you and you did wonders there...but now I am going to close it again...It really hurts coz every time I build this web of protection..I lose a part of myself...and believe me I know I am to blame over here...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
PS:  I know saying Goodbye hurts...but the day you wept for me.. you gave me enough of you to make you part of my life forever.....





Saturday, April 07, 2012

The new phase...

Many of you didn't notice that this stupid blogger completed his 29 years of his existence and now living in the 30s of his life...

Like every birthday night I thought this birthday too my phone will be raining with messages and call... but remembered.. hey I haven't wished anyone any on his or her birthday too.. so after waiting till 2 AM.. I realized that I am actually happy because I haven't got any phony wishes...So I slept as I had a doc's appointment that day....So woke up at  7... had a bath and then thanked God for the beautiful 29 years of my life and prayed to make this year also a picture perfect....

But he always have a different plan for me....How can he let my life be so still like the damned algae infested ponds... so he raised that turmoil that surely changed my life forever...

In a moment.... I felt the whole world slipping away from my grasp....a life full of satisfaction and pleasure just turned into something that is beyond my understanding....

Now I have everyone in my life... yet I do not have anyone in my life anymore.. I am suddenly so empty that it feel like I am going to collapse from within.. there is so much emotional turmoil going on...yet I am all blank emotionally.....

Believe me!!! I did pray to him to make this year also a great one...

This emptiness and the feeling that I will be lonely for the rest of my miserable life whatever that is left is killing me softly.. But then I am not a person who believe in after life or life after that... this is the only one life I have got coz I don't remember any that I have got previously.....

The reason I am writing this .......... coz I know I am a stubborn emotionless person...and I want this post to remind me and only me that beneath this strong outer crust  I do have a soft core...as I know one day things will be not be same anymore... I am just afraid that this will happen soon...

I want to express myself so badly...but being a bullied kid...I developed this strong armor of  hollowness and 'Don't give a damn' attitude that is actually turning into me instead of protecting me. I want to cry... like I used to cry when I was a kid and friends and family used to tell me what a cry baby  I will be ....but now they know my outer shell only...they forgot the real me... they fell in love with that hard indestructible outer core.... not knowing that this is not me...and seeing me crying they just feel helpless..and eventually I get more helpless... a vicious circle....

Last few days were not good for me.. and I do not know what fate had in store for me... But I guess I have to start learning this new phase of my life before it starts taking its toll on me...

So Mr. Sourish Karmakar... welcome to 30s of your life.. welcome to this new phase......

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Sachin's 100th 100...

A letter to Sachin Tendulkar!!!

Hats off to you Master Blaster!!!!

Sorry was Busy..so couldn't see your 100th 100 ... but anyways I totally loved the way you did your 100....

Thanks to the media!!! for not letting me miss the moment....

Do you believe what people are saying that you took 138 balls to get the 100 and that made India lose the match....and you need to retire??? How mean isn't??

BTW... I have different opinion....if India lost to Bangladesh...then it is a high time the Team India should quit playing altogether...Bangladesh???? It is a matter of utter disgust...

Anyways!!! Play whatever time you wanna play like...!!! After if India have starting losing to Bangladesh...then playing a 88 year old grandpa in the team will not do any worse....

But Anyways Congrats!!!!

yours once fan!!!


PS: : Letter is written in pure humor... I am sure hitting a ball with 4 inch wide bat is really a big work that Indian Cricketer's do for India....!!!! After all we all need someone who can represent the Ad brands...See even the Bangladesh team is celebrating that Sachin made 100th century!!! LOL



Monday, March 12, 2012

Writer's block

Sometimes you desperately want to write something, yet you can't..I so want to write something but I am not getting what to write about...

Anyways Budget session is on.!!! I guess I better go watch TV.... lol

Hey !!! do hear the song from Tere Naal.... Piya O re Piya..!!! Atif Aslam and Shreya Ghosal at their best.. :)

My mind is getting cramped up with I don't know what thoughts... Have you ever faced this or I am just going in depression ???

Me in Depression... LOL....What an irony of life...LOL...

Oh!!! I hate you... not particularly you... but I hate you all... LoL.. "I  AM getting in Depression".... Got to go and Smoke

C ya....

Oh!!! btw there was another gang rape in Delhi....Kudos to you Ms. Sheila Dikshit for making a Safe Delhi... Safe Delhi for Gang Rapists!!! LoL...Seriously!!! I am all fucked up right now...Blame it all to my writer's block..block of good for nothing writer's all around...lol....seriously gtg!!!

TC

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Rockstar

No, I ain't gonna scream like Pink..singing... "I'm still a rockstar, I got my rock moves and I don't need you now..."
But I really love that song...it is the first time Pink really sang something so good....

Actually, I was thinking to write about my latest found love for romantic movies especially the movie "The rockstar"... I have realized one thing that for really appreciating a chick flick you need to be heartbroken...When you are in relationship, you end up comparing your life with the movie.. I know every boy want their loved on to go dead with some deadly disease ..so that he can cry on her deathbed..Weird!!! Isn't??? But I talked with many boys and all wanted their girl to be dead and dying after their ordeal with a chick flick...Sometimes they want to care for her while other times they actually wanted to care the dying hot chick of that chick flick.. ;-)

Many of you are getting my updates in your mail box (if you have subscribed to my feeds) and have started wondering " why the hell this guy is spamming up our mail box with some sheer stupid posts?"
Answer is " I don't know"...

Actually!! what I am nearly realizing that.. internet world is of losers only.... the guys and gals who are lonely...scramble up their image and move to internet world... sometimes they are here to find someone to talk to without actually getting judged by them...but most of the time.. it becomes.. I will only talk to you if you talk to me.. in Blogger world..it can be said as.. I will read your blog ..only if you read mine.... or in more shameless way... you will find a comment..."It is a wonderful post and I can connect to your post completely"..Now, how the hell you can connect all the time to my posts when I am in love and When I am here heartbroken.. ??? LoL..I know that actually means..."I increased your comment count..now come increase mine.."...

I just realized I have a habit of repeating the word "Actually" over and over again... lol...!!!

Coming to the point!!... recently my mind is so much cramped up with thoughts that I am getting suffocated...so I am here just to scratch all the thoughts from there to this page....

Anyways!!!

I was here to talk about Rockstar!!! but I ended up whining again...

I really loved that movie!! And I really love the sound tracks of the movie... I have never seen such a beautiful Musical classic in recent time... The movie is so well paced, well edited and well shot...that I ended up watching it twice in a same day...it is a rare phenomenon..coz I never watch the same movie back to back without fast forwarding it....The movie started with a boy who wants to be "Heartbroken" and ended up with the line " Please don't let my heart get broken".... and he actually got cheered up when he showed his middle finger...A really wonderful movie....!!! So do watch it if you haven't already....And AR Rehman.. you are simply awesome....!!! So you are Mohit Chauhan!! and you too Irshad Kamir... and yes !! Mr. Director Imtiaj and Ms . Editor Aarti.. you all are simply great..

O eco-friendly, nature ke rakshak, main bhi hoon nature
Rivaazon se, samaajhon se kyon
Tu kaate mujhe, kyun baante mujhse iss tarah
Kyun sach ka sabak sikhaaye, jab sach sunn bhi na paaye
Sach koi bole toh tu niyam kanoon bataaye
Tera darr, tera pyaar, teri waah, tu hi rakh (rakh saali)
Saadda haq, aithe rakh




  


Thursday, March 01, 2012

Life sucks!! if only it really did suck...



Recently, I realized that online world is not for me anymore... I feel so irritated with the all those facts that I used to do... chatting, texting ,sexting, tweeting, orkuting, online flirting, facebooking...Guess I am getting old for this kind of stuffs.. I seriously don't get the point when you have a laptop and you are practically net connected all the time when you are in office or in home...that is like almost all the non sleeping time of the life... then why the hell people need to be connected to internet while they are en-route to both these destination... I seriously feel like crap when people go to pay hefty 3G price to stream youtube videos...that you can get on your free net connection and transfer it to your mobile via Bluetooth or data cable....Camera on mobile I can understand.. but making MMS while you are making love...what the hell is that?... but anyways don't stop...I defn like to watch your girl in action.. ...*wink wink*

Yeah!!! this is just a random ranting... This is the first time in last 2 months I got time free for myself because the reactor I was working got leaked...so I thought why not catalog my life here...I know nobody reads...(Don't get presumptous that I am going to share some private life here.. I am pervert but I don't like other perverts..)...so everything will stay safe and preserved here forever....Oh! you know there is no word 'informations' ...it is only 'information'...the one thing that internet did..was screwing up my english....I was never the star english student of the class but was fair... but now...my english sucks big time....

Last two months many things happened... My little cousin brother got married...there i realized..opting for doing Ph.D. degree actually destroyed my life...but then I did a lot of masti.. I smoked, I drank, I used a lot of stuff.... I am not regretting...but I screwed up many lives connected to mine... my parents who wanted a son who will be right there as support when Daddy dear retires..my sister who wanted me to help her in times of pain.. my girl who wanted a steady married life...everyone waited for me to complete my education and start taking up responsibilities...but I was busy chatting... busy flirting online...playing stupid games..smoking weeds ...taking up contraband in se . smoking cigarettes.. drinking alcohol.. and busy watching porn and playing with myself when I am not doing all the above.. lol...loneliness sucks...  if only it had really sucked..life would have been much better... lol

But then ...what I have started .. I need to complete it... I just realized it little late ...when everything starting taking its toll on my sanity....Life sucks ..seriously big time...sometimes I think ..better to end this... but you know what if there is no reincarnation..even as pig (I am sure I will be no human next time)..you end up your life...you put misery to an end..but you actually go blank....you will never be able to taste good food..good wine .and good women...so see I am not a quitter...so even if this loneliness suck...everyone walk away from me..I will be there living this life with all the fun that I can have.....You know...there was a russian cosmonaut who was alone is space for more than a year alone in a space module...the module malfunctioned ..there  started a beeping sound...he was very irritated.. he tried his level best to stop this sound.. but he couldn't...he realized that he will go insane...then he decided to do something amazing.. he made himself fall in love with that annoying sound....when he returned ..he said the music was so good... it never let him feel lonely.. So...I have started loving these miseries of my life.. I have started loving myself... I have started loving my loneliness....May be one day I will not be lonely any more.. I will have miseries, loneliness and me as companions....

Lol!! And you say..... it took toll on you physically and mentally......Live my life... you will know what the term "taking toll" means...I just regret one thing...if only I'd noticed your fingers crossed.....

You know when every clutter you think start banging your head from inside.....just bang your head more... it will counteract the effect of you falling apart... listening  to some loud music defn feel soothing....J . Lo's 'On the floor' is my today's companion.....









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