Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Feeling so lonely... (modified)

It's 3 : 30 AM here..and I can't sleep..this indifference of her is killing's not that for the first time I m feeling this..but everytime..I love sumone..and she gets indifferent..I don't blame her though..coz I brought this upon me ...
Cindy was there so long...she has this wonderful touch that helped me forget all those..but I dint went to sleep afta she left...and instead went to have tea..and now m having the joint in my hand..I am so sleepy ...yet can't sleep..and then this song came in my playlist...

It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
Theres nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
Its just the way that you would tied in
Now theres no-one home

I grieve for you
You leave me
so hard to move on
Still loving whats gone
They say life carries on
Carries on and on and on and on

The news that truly shocks is the empty empty page
While the final rattle rocks its empty empty cage
And I cant handle this

I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
Missing whats gone
They say life carries on
They say life carries on and on and on

Life carries on
In the people I meet
In everyone thats out on the street
In all the dogs and cats
In the flies and rats
In the rot and the rust
In the ashes and the dust
Life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

Its just the car that we ride in
A home we reside in
The face that we hide in
The way we are tied in
And life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

Did I dream this belief?
Or did I believe this dream?
Now I can find relief
I grieve...

But can i find relief ??..but believe me..I grieve..m no robot..I also feel the pain when m heartbroken...even wen it's not my first...


PS: thx to keshi, Anurekha mam n cindy for being with me in the rough patch..
abhi anjuli di ki daant khani bhi baaki hai :D..abhi wo mujhe itna saara dhakkan bolegi :P

Good wishes to her too..I kno it's not easy for her...and also m glad that she scored 84.7 % in her finals...

This is the video link of the song..its OST of City of Angels :)

and the mp3 link


  1. is this some kinda suicidal post? I dun like it one bit. I know ur lonely n sad, but tell me this Sourish..WHO ISNT?

    If u know my life, if u know wut Im going thru, if u know wut Im dealing with, if u know my pain, u'll realise that we r all dealing with alot Sourish. But the BLADE isnt the solution. Imagine the pain u'd inflict upon ur loved-ones by doing such a thing? The only thing that kept me alive was that thought...the thought of my mum..her face, her tears if/when she sees me dead. I dun want her to go thru that..NEVER.

    Now do u want that to happen to ur mum? I rem u said ur a momma's momma's boy wud do that to their mum right??

    Sometimes I feel the same why should I go thru this hell. Thats when I write similar posts. But then I realise, I must go on. Cos cutting my life short isnt gonna achive anything but PAIN..for my loved-ones. And I cant bear to imagine em like that.

    *HUGZ* TC n be well. did u know I LOVE YA alot?


  2. now lets go gatecrash a wedding or a funeral..wut say bro? :)

    And hey I ADORE my new nic. Ur the best u know!



  3. Dude, matha kharap hoyegechhi na ki ?!

    After all the funny talk yesterday, I hadnt a clue you'd be like this. Fck !

    I know it hurts. It always does. Just give it sometime. Things will be ok.

    Trust me. And read my latest post. Perhaps that'll help.


  4. Sourish, what's wrong with u....will call u tonight!

  5. Ur Suga-sis is here...where r ya?



  6. k ur older-woman crush is here...

    come out wont ya!


  7. Keshi

    sissyy.. m ok...bit depresssed but ok..I kno myself...I m no fool to commit such thing


    but it's good that it came out..otherwise it wudnt good for me to accumulate so much in my lil mind :|

    Love ya sis..
    thx for being dere for me :|

  8. boy Im glad ur alive :) I was very worried.

    **I m no fool to commit such thing

    shhh its not only fools who commit suicide. very intelligent ppl do it too. Usually it's high-achievers who commit suicide..did u know that? High-achievers get depressed easily...cos boredowm comes from knowing too much.

    I want u to know that Im always there for ya...some may say we r just net buddies but u hv already taken a big space in my heart.

    So stay. *HUGZ*

    **Love ya sis..
    thx for being dere for me

    well Im glad abt that. Cos if u die, who can I be there for. LOL!

    *MWAH* TC man!


  9. keshi

    sissyy...I just don have wrds to express..all i kno is m jus gettin paranoid...

    yeap won't go anewhere leaving my sissy :|


  10. mere ko bhi joint pass kar mere bhai..marke kya karna hai kash lagao

  11. dukh ho rah hai mai ab kya bolu..... chod abhi sochmat... aur kuch karenge khelenge..chal kuch aur karke man behlayenge.... who tujhe zero banage gayi to tu goal ka aur hero ban ja..mai taali bajaunga...aaaja chal jaynge ground kko

  12. It will be fine... it hurts the most to realise that something you once cherished and cared about is all gone, abandoned and ignored.
    But you will get through. It will eventually make you stronger and may you be blessed with a girl with beautiful soul because you deserve it. :)

    Things will be eventually fine, just take your own time to grieve over it... not too long though.. :)

    Take good care,
    hugs :)

  13. Bhaiiyya,i'm worried for you.please take care.i know it hurts alot.but don't be so sadsad.and we'll talk after my exams okay?chat or whateva?you gotta feel okay.

    now please do eeeeeeeeeee and gimme a daanth-dekhano iismile.

    hugsiiiiesss!laaabh you!

  14. samby
    tune neha k liye sutta chhor diya hai na ??


  15. samby

    football :-s

    jindagi khood itna laat maar rahi hai ... lol ab football kya kheloo ;))

  16. lena...

    thx for the wish...and I hope that this grieve don't get too long..
    I m holding on to my breathes..for the water to recede ..let's c wat happens

  17. clouds

    u r such a shweeetheart...

    tum pehle apne eggjam clear kar lo fir we will talk a alot abr it..k

    luv ya to sis

    nd for u

    eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

  18. boooohooooooo...blogger mera comment kha gaya :(

    i was aaj maine kahin padha ke if you are feeling down and sad, you should go help some one, unko khush dekh ke tu bhi khush ho jayega. jaake 2-4 bhuke bachon ko khana khila ke aa.

    and then i said that my suggestion sounds very stoopid, but all am trying to say is cheer up :)

  19. kashmira

    di.. bhuke bachhee :-s
    not bad...

    aaj i try on ur suggestion...dekhe kya hota hai :-s

    waise aaj blogger pagla gya hai..mere bhi bahut saare kha liye isne :|

  20. Im glad ur feeling better today..I read ur update.

    *HUGZ* TC my bro. I need ya to come to my wedding..u see and u wont be gatecrashing it either hehehe.

    Whenever that may happen though. LOL!


  21. Sissy :-s

    wedding :O

    wen :O :O

    wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww congratssssssssss

    but sissy my row boat got holes :( aus is ouuta my reach :|

    but will visit u soon..may be wen u have lil kids.. :)

  22. hahaha, blogger bhi bhuka tha aaj, looks like ;)

  23. o gawd I hvnt even found the man yet. I was just telling ya abt!


  24. Keshi
    so much of wedding blues that u r distributing wedding cards without even finding the groom lol

  25. kashmira

    di..toh fir 4 5 bhukhe bachhe na dhundkar blogger ko hi dher saare comments khilata hoon :P


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