Dis post is jus after we had fight today and like always ended up ...saying ..I love You.. and after that I got busy in my fest KY-08 after letting her sleep for the aftanoon nap...Dis is her post m sharing to let you ppl kno ..how sweeet she is :)
Its not that I have never stayed all by myself. Not even that I do not enjoy solitude. But somehow I haven't yet got accustomed to the feeling of being all alone.
In the evening woke up with this really sulking feeling. The fact that nobody was there with a beaming smile, no one was worried that it was completely dark and I would be a grand feast for the mosquitoes, nor was a call to say januuuuuuuuuuuu I love you :'( made it worse than a nightmare.
I called up Ma, wanted to tel her how angry I was and How I felt that she only loves dada and its high time she must come back ...I cannot do without her. but only end up saying "everything's fine up here no need to worry" .
by then the feeling was creeping inside me , killing me, making me more and more sadistic . Called up Bhaiya wanted to say " betu main uthhh gayi ...koi bhi nahi mere paash , tum bhi nahi :'(" but alas! cleared by throat and said " beta khana hum bana lenge , u need not wrry ". grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!
By the time I turned down the fone, felt something warm on the cheeks , was I really crying ?
Probably coz am feeling miserable DD isnt here with me .
called him only to say "I really need you in my life now and forever and no matter how bad the day is , how much angry you are, I don't want you to ever ever stop talking to me". Can't do without you . >:D<
Only to whisper "I love you ...bas yehi bolna tha ":)
I may not ever tell them how much they mean to me but its true that every smile I smile , every tear I cry it its because of them.
And I miss you .