Saturday, September 19, 2009

Sorry!!! my love...

I was not gonna post sumthing before I return back from the vacation....but I missed my blog...I missed pouring my heart here...I missed crying in front of it looking at the blank window while writing the post....I missed all of you who poured your heart to me at least used to and I blame myself for going far...but I don;t have any chice..not like I wann live in a mafia war...I just don;t wanna come and read it again..

It's been loong since she is off my life...I missed talking with her late nights...sleeping with her in my cell phone saying all the sweet little nonsense that I never understood but yet it was so sweet and soothing...the way she used to ask me to stay awake ....the way she used to tell me that she don't wanna end this night...I missed everything about her...not that I don't have any choice ..may be I m a coward....that I never said ' Sorry' to her... I thought in love you don't apologise...at least I used to think like that..she took all the ruthless nonsense I poured in her plate and she never complained ..and may be it was too much for her...she left without any warning...and I ended up like a kid without the toy that he used to love all the time and it never complained when he threw it to show tantrums...



I am sorry for not able to love you like u always wanted to be....

I am sorry for able to be the guy that u can look upto

I am sorry for all the nonsense I poured in ur life

I am sorry that I slept before you wen u n me used to have those long telephonic cnversation.

I am sorry for asking you to leave ur family and love me alone..

I am sorry that I did shits wen u left

I am sorry for missing you like this

I m sorry for every moment that I spent thinking about you wen u said to stop thinking alive we about you..

I am sorry for everything that u ever wanted to have an apology  from me....

I am sorry for loveing you always n forever.....

Yeah!!!! I know I sounded like a chick..but what should I tell to my tears who keeps rolling down my cheeks wenever I think about you, the way like now....

There is song for all of you....my readers and my love....do here it...it is one of my fav of James Blunt... 'Same Mistake'



Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.


Ps: U just don't have to read all the junk I keep on writing...but I do want to say that I love you all for being with me...Happy durgapuja and Dussehra to you and  Eid mubarak to all of ya... God bless you all...See you all wen time finds...

10 comments:

  1. :) its good u said ur sorry or i would also be angry u dint come :P....thats a nice sorry poem u had written ...ur blog is so happy with it i guess :)..

    u to have a nice time in the holidays and wish u also happy dasara :)..and ramzan mubharak ..:)..

    urs..hemu..

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  2. i dont know what to so..... *hugs* hope this helps.

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  3. take care dude..and enjoy the festivities!!

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  4. good to know that u r crying,, keep crying..

    u will laugh a lot when few years from now u will think of this

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  5. made me really sad :(
    hugs and take care..
    whatever happens in life happens for a reason, even if we dont see it at first.

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