I hate wen I don get to sleep

In The morning, When I checked in via my frnds account..she was gone ..gone from the orkut..may be orkut has certain problems..but I cudnt find her anywhere..I was so shocked..
She did uttered da word
"Chhorna kise kehte hai yeh ab dekhoge"
Now I really fear..did she meant it :(

Uff its pathetically sad...and how hard I wanna pen down a letter to her..asking for her forgiveness..not to talk to her again..but jus don wanaa end like dis..
Ireally don understand..when i confessed earlier to her..dat I did flirted wid her..oops it was written in my farmers italian..I think she dint got it den..but the way shereacted ...dO I deserve it..yeah may be i had some tricks on my gloves..but I don remember I used any to her..I confessed her my feeling..I cried for her..I drank, i slashed down my wrist...I don kno wat to do abt it...

I jus don understand..when i agreed to the fact that we wont be together..y she is thinking dat i played wid her...

I did called for it..I kno the exact words..I really penned down knowingly..so dat she can leave me..and even wen she was back...I knew..it wud hav eased her pain..but I knowingly dint stopped her..coz I really don kno ..wat will happen next in my life...
But I must confess..I dint took it well... :(..M I still not over ...
But i shud go on wid it
Coz I kno..she hates me now..and I kno I called for it..
Hope Almighty forgive me for wrathing her to leave me

God bless u son
Take care..

Y I renamed my blog

The only reason to change the blog adddress is dat the ppl shudnt be taking this blog as an apology or desperate effort to get them back..i want that dis blog shud also perform the duty wat itz been for dat is keeping weblog :)

gudnite...

Who am I?

Who am I?

Two of my gud frnds
whom i really care about last day threw me a ques..
M i making joke outta dem ?

Here is da young gals response

All through this time when i was close to you, you played wid me...

Play wid her..My god
Think wats dis playing is worth for, I spent dozens of sleepless nite waiting to hear her response, when she was away,( yeah I know she wasnt away like dat wat she is now)..and she says m playing.. :O
Now I really dont kno, if i cant see her,I heard her voice only a few times, all the time i read her replies in messenger and replied wid my broken hand..she says m playing wid her..now wats da trophy m getting outta it..if she admits dat she loves me and cares about me, Will i get a noble prize? or a olympic gold medal...all i ever anted to talk to her..coz i liked being wid her..not because she was heavenly beautiful..but she was da one who let out da kid in me..we really had a gud time wid all those h after s replacing r by l ..j by t..several called me insane..yet i happily took it..but I doon understand y she calling me traitor..all i had done is..i interactedwid her wid a purpose of getting frnd..not getting her love..Love ..lolz wats dis love stands for in internet..itz only time to spend..so dat we can ease the pain of the reality..to be ourselves..lolz she thot i planned to put her in my arms......
lolz

And dere is dis nice gal..wenever m low and crying she is dere wid helping hands..she had got her sum1..but yet she never given me any less treatment dan wat wud hav she given him too..she never failed to say me sorry after any big fight..and she always returned back to me..and wat m doing to her..nuffin..everytime i make her worried and come crying..I just used her a lot like my own diary to tell her all my secrets to comfort me...and i always used her as A TV set..whom i always say that she is making me one..but for last few days..I m getting real obsessed about her..may be i don kno her..i havnt seen her..may be dis curiosity is making me
..getting moire closer to her..and I really don understand ..y I m getting addicted of her?
But
Jus wen i expected to get an answer from her..dat who am I?..She gave her answer..

"plz :) dis is stupid i know but thr r things which r better not mentioned coz dey r bout the real me not bout sarah"
So ...
lolz
and m back again wid da same question" Who am I?"

In jus days whole of my world changed...let it be for some1s good..else..wats da use ?
Take care

deleting orkut :O now wat happened :O:P

Two of my frnd left me today
reason i made da joke out of dem

dey gone crying
n m her drinking
lolz
n deleting one more orkut account

i will get a diploma on deletion of da profiles

lolz

take care all
again itz paining me so hard..m a grt addict

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Dunt ya bug me: so i get a chance to once again rite abt sourish..n dis time honey ill try ma best to write sumthin big enough..not as big as d one ya wrote for me..but bigger den ma last one..so here i strt..well sourish...he is so dfrnt..his facade is so dfrnt frm his inner sourish...he wld luk lik dis kool types lik d one who wldnt care n no doubt he is kool but his inner him is so mch lik dis lovely guy full o passion to keep up wid his frds,n i luv d fact abt him dat he doesnt let ne o his frd feel alone...dis guy can talk forever widout ne reason...ya wuld feel dat his talks r kiddish but suddenly he wuld talk sumthin so intlignt n dat wuld deff take away d tht o him bein foolish..coz he s def not..he s ma cute n smart frd...i can tak to him forever...n i shld tel ya i hav grt fun talkin to him...esp when we bitch together..omg..its so mch o fun wid him..i hav neva understd it yet dat how can he owez maitain to b so kool even when hes in worst moods..hes sch a grt guy..luv ya owez honey..muah >:d<> remove *~*~*~*~*Dewdr0p: FOR U BUDDHU!!! 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Lolz she asked me wat will happen to her after 2 years
will she ever able to forget me

and i jus said a line dat hurts gals da most :P
she shut me off dat day only lolzz
God forgive me :)

Am not dat bad
M I?

take care