The new phase...

Many of you didn't notice that this stupid blogger completed his 29 years of his existence and now living in the 30s of his life...

Like every birthday night I thought this birthday too my phone will be raining with messages and call... but remembered.. hey I haven't wished anyone any on his or her birthday too.. so after waiting till 2 AM.. I realized that I am actually happy because I haven't got any phony wishes...So I slept as I had a doc's appointment that day....So woke up at  7... had a bath and then thanked God for the beautiful 29 years of my life and prayed to make this year also a picture perfect....

But he always have a different plan for me....How can he let my life be so still like the damned algae infested ponds... so he raised that turmoil that surely changed my life forever...

In a moment.... I felt the whole world slipping away from my grasp....a life full of satisfaction and pleasure just turned into something that is beyond my understanding....

Now I have everyone in my life... yet I do not have anyone in my life anymore.. I am suddenly so empty that it feel like I am going to collapse from within.. there is so much emotional turmoil going on...yet I am all blank emotionally.....

Believe me!!! I did pray to him to make this year also a great one...

This emptiness and the feeling that I will be lonely for the rest of my miserable life whatever that is left is killing me softly.. But then I am not a person who believe in after life or life after that... this is the only one life I have got coz I don't remember any that I have got previously.....

The reason I am writing this .......... coz I know I am a stubborn emotionless person...and I want this post to remind me and only me that beneath this strong outer crust  I do have a soft core...as I know one day things will be not be same anymore... I am just afraid that this will happen soon...

I want to express myself so badly...but being a bullied kid...I developed this strong armor of  hollowness and 'Don't give a damn' attitude that is actually turning into me instead of protecting me. I want to cry... like I used to cry when I was a kid and friends and family used to tell me what a cry baby  I will be ....but now they know my outer shell only...they forgot the real me... they fell in love with that hard indestructible outer core.... not knowing that this is not me...and seeing me crying they just feel helpless..and eventually I get more helpless... a vicious circle....

Last few days were not good for me.. and I do not know what fate had in store for me... But I guess I have to start learning this new phase of my life before it starts taking its toll on me...

So Mr. Sourish Karmakar... welcome to 30s of your life.. welcome to this new phase......

Life sucks!! if only it really did suck...

Recently, I realized that online world is not for me anymore... I feel so irritated with the all those facts that I used to do... chatting, texting ,sexting, tweeting, orkuting, online flirting, facebooking...Guess I am getting old for this kind of stuffs.. I seriously don't get the point when you have a laptop and you are practically net connected all the time when you are in office or in home...that is like almost all the non sleeping time of the life... then why the hell people need to be connected to internet while they are en-route to both these destination... I seriously feel like crap when people go to pay hefty 3G price to stream youtube videos...that you can get on your free net connection and transfer it to your mobile via Bluetooth or data cable....Camera on mobile I can understand.. but making MMS while you are making love...what the hell is that?... but anyways don't stop...I defn like to watch your girl in action.. ...*wink wink*

Yeah!!! this is just a random ranting... This is the first time in last 2 months I got time free for myself because the reactor I was working got leaked...so I thought why not catalog my life here...I know nobody reads...(Don't get presumptous that I am going to share some private life here.. I am pervert but I don't like other perverts..)...so everything will stay safe and preserved here forever....Oh! you know there is no word 'informations' ...it is only 'information'...the one thing that internet did..was screwing up my english....I was never the star english student of the class but was fair... but now...my english sucks big time....

Last two months many things happened... My little cousin brother got married...there i realized..opting for doing Ph.D. degree actually destroyed my life...but then I did a lot of masti.. I smoked, I drank, I used a lot of stuff.... I am not regretting...but I screwed up many lives connected to mine... my parents who wanted a son who will be right there as support when Daddy dear retires..my sister who wanted me to help her in times of pain.. my girl who wanted a steady married life...everyone waited for me to complete my education and start taking up responsibilities...but I was busy chatting... busy flirting online...playing stupid games..smoking weeds ...taking up contraband in se . smoking cigarettes.. drinking alcohol.. and busy watching porn and playing with myself when I am not doing all the above.. lol...loneliness sucks...  if only it had really sucked..life would have been much better... lol

But then ...what I have started .. I need to complete it... I just realized it little late ...when everything starting taking its toll on my sanity....Life sucks ..seriously big time...sometimes I think ..better to end this... but you know what if there is no reincarnation..even as pig (I am sure I will be no human next time)..you end up your life...you put misery to an end..but you actually go blank....you will never be able to taste good food..good wine .and good women...so see I am not a quitter...so even if this loneliness suck...everyone walk away from me..I will be there living this life with all the fun that I can have.....You know...there was a russian cosmonaut who was alone is space for more than a year alone in a space module...the module malfunctioned ..there  started a beeping sound...he was very irritated.. he tried his level best to stop this sound.. but he couldn't...he realized that he will go insane...then he decided to do something amazing.. he made himself fall in love with that annoying sound....when he returned ..he said the music was so good... it never let him feel lonely.. So...I have started loving these miseries of my life.. I have started loving myself... I have started loving my loneliness....May be one day I will not be lonely any more.. I will have miseries, loneliness and me as companions....

Lol!! And you say..... it took toll on you physically and mentally......Live my life... you will know what the term "taking toll" means...I just regret one thing...if only I'd noticed your fingers crossed.....

You know when every clutter you think start banging your head from inside.....just bang your head more... it will counteract the effect of you falling apart... listening  to some loud music defn feel soothing....J . Lo's 'On the floor' is my today's companion.....

Need You Now

It won’t be an exaggeration if I say, with you around each day is as love dipped as ever. But that doesn’t mean, with you tucked inside my heart I won’t sink myself in the essence of this Valentine’s Day. For you deserve every extra bit of love, care, attention and everything lovely that this day promises.

Can’t write much you see. Hope this much will suffice given the fact that I am on my expedition (?) to South, of course along with your thoughts.

All as of now I can say is,  I Need You Now.

Wish you all a very happy Valentine’s Day expressly to my sweetheart who is waiting at her White Window. :P

I wanna be oblivious....but I might not ever :-|

There are so many things swarming my mind...of which my longest score on loneliness and being single...down with flu...getting backstabbed by dear frnds...left alone in darkness and all the negative vibes are topping the list.... but I guess each one has to live his own life...and u can't expect that all will help ur cause... at least wen I m not shifting  my gears in their direction.....

I'm so jealous of their obliviousness towards life.. :-)

Nowadays...loneliness and nothing to do is killing me... and the serious shit is this flu that I m caught up with...son of bitch  is not letting me even smoke a fag ..leave alone joints or other things...

oh!! btw there is a new party drug available cheap ...it is named YABA... and believe me the kick it gives on and after taking that is seriously awesome....thx to Headlines Today for its free publicity...now even I ..who is living in a small city know abt it... just one added info...it is addictive and it affects ur sexual stimulation...it is not ecstasy it is sexctasy so beware it might make u impotent without it for ever.....and a lil overdose can burst ur nerve ...so if u wanna do this high illegal stuff... then look before u leap....

today I got a phone from a long lost frnd...and she was getting married and guess what..like all time she said u were so coward then...u could have proposed me at least once...and I laughed...she laughed and we changed the topic....so everyone is getting married....I guess it is high time for me to join a job and settle finally...oh btw my fellowship is gonna increase to non-taxable Rs 29,000 per month...and I am eagerly waitng for the hike.... I guess now I can buy scotch instead of buying whiskeys in pub ....

love u all ... and if u have skipped to the end of  post..avoiding reading all the above...u did a great thing...now shut my blog off and move on  to the next blog.. lol

PS: the pic is a low resolution cybershot...if u need a higher resolution u can always ask for it mailing in 

sourish.rs.bce@itbhu.ac.in

Nostalgia ...

Sorry for the last post..I know many of you got disturbed reading... but that's what I am .. I don't pretend and I don't lie... 

I m suffering from a mild flu attack...  Naah! not the swine flu :P..u ain't gonna get rid of me so easy :D and moreover my lab is leading the research on it...so no way I am gonna die  of swine flu...

Few weeks back..I visited my folks..and was going through the family album...and you won't believe..how sweet I was wen I was a kiddo :P


So sharing the pics with little introductions.... 

 

My fst year in Cochin.. and don't enlarge the pic to see the wee-wee ..u naughty girls :P ( just FYI ..it is not that small now...lol ) 

My Annaprashan.. an occasion when the child is given whole cereals for the fst time ..and the other sweethearts are my cousin sis and right extreme is my own sis..

 

My fst sports award :P and I was sweetheart then too :P

  

My fst drawing and calligraphy awards 

  

My fst shot to fame..He is CMD of IPCL Baroda..and I played the role of engineer of a petrochemical plant in lower kindergarten.. 

 

My fst award of a metallurgy's quiz ( left is Diptendu, centre is Amartya, and I am the right one ;) Class IX)

 

My fst National level debate award..cash prize of Rs.1000.

  

My fst sanskrit drama..I was playing the role of Vishnu in the centre

  

My fst english drama ( the man with the gun..true mafia guy :P ) 

And Believe me I am a sweetheart now too  :P

PS: Don't go to crowded place without any mask...Swine flu is spreading fast

I m back .......

Ahhhh!!  I was waiting for so long to utter these magical words.... :P

I m back

and believe me ..I am feeling like Arnie :p

I was off for I guess some 17 -18 days..and whole world went upside down...

a)

There was this wonderful dedication for me in Preetilata's page....A beautiful piece of Acrostic ...of course it flew above my head....but guys....she dedicated it to me only.... :D..that was just more than awesome of her...and I so love her for that....

The Dedication

I guess it is my fst time to be appearing in a post without any other guy diluting my existence..... 
Love ya loads preeti...and wateva I understand of poems..urs rock :P

b)

Pop Legend...MJ passed away and like usual.. media's playing blame game and throwing dirt at the legend even wen he was on for his last rites...though I was not much a fan of MJ but he deserves respect ...May God bless the soul of the departed and give peace to ones surviving the wrath.....

c)
 

oops wrong pic :p..see the bottom one.. :P

Rakhi auntie started her reality Swayamvar :P ...at firs I thought it was some comedy show just given good anti-publicity ...but wen I saw the fst episode...ok!! I m sorry I watched the first episode... don't kill me for being curious :D....it was devastating :P....... A TICKR line of MTV conveyed the best...the fst reality show where the winner will be a looser...lol!!!! .Only Rakhi can survive this much amount of foolishness onscreen...

d) 

Pritam da....will doobofy the name of Bengali music clan....it is gore to find him copying shamelessly :D....lol I think copyright to his dumb brain means Right to copy :D... I fink he is rite now having too much of Garam chai ki pyali with our own Anu uncle :P


e)

I missed three bdays of three beautiful blogville gals... Pallavini, Keshi and Nehya .....I guess they won't shoot me...if I wish them belated wishes here on my page.....ohhhh!!! sumone just said I din't missed Nehya's and she is so secretive about it..I saw someone wishing her on FB...where she shouted her wish to wear bikini without going for a swim on her bday ......  

So Happy bday gals :) love u loads...... May all ur dreams come true :P especially if it is of having a date with me :D with u paying the bills ...lol....

PS: I missed u all a lot.....and thanks to all of u for remembering me ..... :P and I won't mind if U come and lie that u missed me ;)..... I will catch up with all the updates of ur blogs soon :)..love u all

My date with Sarah

I was thinking since morning...( no way i am gonna explain...how does it feel to think without brains ..it is strictly classified .... :D )

to write a post about the beautiful trip to DELHI to meet my then-gf who is now my ex....coz I din't want that to get lost down in my memory lane only because she chose to dump me out.....

But right now feeling damn hungry....so saving the draft and going to eat sumfink :D

I am back................

So I was writing about the trip....

** It may be long ...mushy...may be hopelessly romantic...so if u want to skip..u can...but this is  my last post for now..as i am going for a vacation from 20th to a date not known for now...so by that time don't forget me and if u get time read it... Will miss u all **

Before the trip ....the important issue was wat to gift her as it was my fist date and it was our first meet...yeah ! we met and fell in love courtesy to ORKUT...

yeah i understand that is Cliche :D...but hey I m not alone in this league...loads of people fell via ORKUT :D...

As usual like all love stories ..her family who was much high class dint knew abt me existence as they defn would have rejected me then as they have rejected me now :D..so I couldn't give her anything flashy and that I regret still..but anyways....watever hapens happens for good :P...so selected few cute items from a gift shop for her ...neatly wrapped them which took nearly  6 hours for clumsy me :D


Train to Delhi was eventful...we continued talking on phone..scheduling and rescheduling everything...and each passnger of my compartment knew that this moron got a gf at his destination point... :D ..some of them wished me luck too...

As soon as I entered New Delhi ....i got swarmed with autowallas who wanted me to chose a hotel and one sardarji found one suitable for me in my low budget after long 1 hour drive....I called her up and asked her to meet me at RLY station..I unpacked in that remote hotel whose stairs I was afraid might fall anytime :P took a bath in 3x3 bathroom which was not even sufficient for me to stand...and commode ..don't ask me how in the name of hell I put my ass on it :P and that too finding there's no flush was icing on the cake  :P...so had to use bucket after that...lol

But any-damned-thing was nothing in comparison to the anticipation of meeting her..


I got to station and found she is gonna come late...traffic jams :p

so I chose to stand in front of SULABH .

.So that she don't find difficult to identify me :D...soon a PCR van stopped and they asked me the reason to stand there ..ina foul haryanwi tone with of course loads of abuses.... I was surprised...as I dint thought I meet the criteria profile of any terrorist who is gonna blow up a public urinal :D...but I managed to tell them in that time...hey buddy....ur boss  took training under my Dad's wing...so don't jump that much...

Thank god!! she came....contrary to what I said..she was looking so cute and beautiful ..trying to identify me among the people lined up for the entry to urinal :D..I thanked to God!! for letting me meet and be part of such a beautiful and innocent soul....I went up to her..she was lil dissapointed seeing me...but managed to evade that expression ..who the fuck are u ..from her face...

We went up to a nearby breakfast joint...and see was amazed how I could manage to eat sumthing  in such a polluted place...hhehehe ..Doing Engineering and being away from home for 6 long years defn take its toll...:D

After that we decided to go to APPU Ghar...as it was the closing day of that zoo but the exorbitant fee stopped her and I regret that too...I had bucks in my pocket...yet she was not allowing me to purchase anything...and ....but who don't want an economical gf :)

So we went to INDIA GATE...and we found a boating place...I am quite a hydrophobic if not with parents and of course the ride was for kids... :D..but I dint want to disappoint her and knowing that water was only knee deep ..I ventured in the boat and found I can't revolve the paddle due to my long legs and shoes :P ...so hehehe she paddled and I was like...
'Haseena boat chalao'...like some mughal emperor sitting on a toy boat...and she was paddling and laughing .. We managed to hit many boats we can and I used to shout " Yalgaar" (attack) everytime we do so..she was all in splits ..and people were  looking at me.thinking..." who the fuck this moron is who is making her gf paddle and making all those funny shouts:D "...

but she was happy and I can see it in her ..her face was radiating with happiness...and we till recently cherished the event...

Then the ordeal started of finding a seat to sit..and u know how difficult it is to find one in any public park..so went to Parade stands ..we exchanged gift and she brought a perfume for me..and I still have that in my closet.....

We talked for long...I wanted to kiss her at one point...but then I thought she dint wanted to kiss me on our fst date...so I thought better not try it...

so we then moved to Palika...

she told me that she is an excellent bargainer so I let her bargain and find out how pathetic she is in that..I bought one shades for Rs100 which he was selling at some Rs 800 and she thought saying 400 will be good to impress me.... :P..so I had to bargain myself... :D



We then went up to lunch...and..what a moron hotel they don't serve lunch after 3..still they agreed to make the exception for us ...but she wanted a pizza...so we bought one ..and believe me it nearly killed my appetite for Pizzas forever...it was pathetic.... :P...and she dint even took another bite...so I packed the pizza so that I can eat it later in my hotel which I was sure won't be serving me any dinner...... :D

After that we sat for a while and then talked a lot abt FENG SHUI which she bought for me for some crazy bucks and I told her that she could have got it cheaper in Rs 10 only...and believe me we found one roadside vendor selling those lucky coins for that price only...

but I still have it in my wallet and may be that's why my wallet after that was never empty :) ...I love her so much for that  :)




I dropped her home then and went back to hotel.. nearly lost but sumhow found my way back...ordered  a beer and some food ..but to my surprise they served me well and by the time I entered I found my bathroom and room all cleaned up.......

Next  day..trouble found her and family issued a Fatwa against meeting me...but she sumhow slipped away and met me nearly 3 hours after we scheduled to meet..in McD ...yeah yeah !! i know it is cliche to spend ur date in a McD but see it was the only place which would let me wait for hours even without ordering anything..still I managed to sip 5 coffees by then...she entered and she it was such a sign of relief seeing the beautiful her...and her sweet shy smile...we discussed the match between Khali and Undertaker ...she got amazed when I asked the McD boy abt Khali...our Indian superstar of WWE arena ....we laughed and then we nearly got into a arguement but thanks to the girl of god knows wat convent school whose pink underwears caught my attention while she was climbing stairs just above me in a skirt so short which I doubt was not even covering half of her milky things ..

(lol ...I can't help going into details of such events :D...)


We then had a fight over some issues...and I saw how she hates angry me...and how much I love her for that..she is all against PDA  ..yet I managed to irritate her kissing her soft shoulders in that busy park and she was like what if that old guy who sat opposite to us knew her father..who is a famous celebrity in Govt.of India...we manged to do some cliche event of eating moongphalis..nuts and what not...

She decided to wait with me for my train but them my mom informed that dad got sum news in his scanner abt a possible attack on New Delhi...So I thought better to escort her home...so I took her to autorickshaw and asked her to go home which she was reluctant to do..how badly I wanted to kiss her byes..still I thought she won't like this cliche at her fst date...so we shook hands..and parted

Little knowing  that it will be our only and last date.... I said her good byes ...

Love u Sarah ...for those beautiful two days..... :)


Good luck with ur future....and stay happy forever.....

A song for you.....if u happen to read it ever...

PS: Don't take it as my vain attempt to get her back....but if memories are beautiful..they are worth keeping .. and as i said my last post for now...so don't forget me by then...

love n carez

My Birthday - The timeline :D

I am loving this time-line thingy..Last time I published a post on Time-line ( Valentine day ) ...my ex-gf dumped me..if u r wondering how can an ex-gf dump me...U  came to right place..coz no one can better answer than me...and the answer is ..

"It is complicated...once I understand myself then I will make u understand :D lol..."

The above context was necessary to mention...as its effects can all be seen in the time-line... and after reading don't call me an emotional fool..as I know, I am, already.  :D

Time line : Events and my state of mind, on  B-day :)

28th March:

11:10 PM:  Still 50 minutes are there...God ! koi phone karega bhi ya nhi?...Last time I had to remind mom who was on her nth romantic escapade with dad..and completely forgot my birthday..and Dad..he has an emergency duty with his anti terrorist thingy..I don' think he will be awake..

11: 50 PM : Will Saraah call me... ? I guess I broke her heart..but was it my fault. that she forgot to call me on Valentine day as she promised ...while she was partying with her frnds ..getting roses and leaving me drinking alone in solitude...aneways..I will try to patch up if she calls...at least we can be  frnds... she will call..I know she is a sweetheart...

29th March ( My B-day) 

00:00AM: * The horrible ring tone and vibrations*..hello! kool it's mom and that too dot on 12 ..Hey ! didi's calling too at same time...oh both of them are sweethearts...now didi is gonna get her diamond necklace soon :D....Dad! he is awake...oh no! he is sleep wishing me :D ..He and his terrorists both need to take a break :-D..

00:20 to 5:30 AM: "thank u" .."thank u" ..."thank u" "oh my thank u"...."thank u" "thank u...same to you..".
"oye! it ain't my birthday it is urs..."
I attended nearly 30 calls in between the time from my national and international frnds and the last son of gun forgot that it is not cozy evening here it is 5: 30 in the morning :D..and as he wished me birthday...I was so sleepy that I said, "Thank u and same to you..."

7:00 AM: My landlord's son came up with a self made bouquet of flowers to wish me birthday..it was so sweet of him..

7 : 30 AM: My frnds here called me to play the cricket match ..they arranged to commemorate my birthday.

8:00 AM to 11:00 AM: I played three hours non stop..and that too after 3 years....and it was so cloudy and wonderfully refreshing time..,.yet it kept me limping throughtout the day of exhaustion..yet it was awesome feeling...we shouted ..cursed ..abused ...but in spirits...just like what we used to do ..on our kidhood days..

1:00 PM: I went to have lunch where few more wishes came..yet I was waiting for her call...and like that song... "Mujhe pyar hai tumse ki jab bhi koi ahaat ho to lage tum aaye" and like that cute girl in that video ..I was waiting for her call and with every ring ..I used to think it was she...but disappointed...yet the irony was that I couldn't be sad..coz the caller on the other side was wishing me birthday with his full spirits...

2:00 PM - 5:00 PM: I slept, I dreamt, I waited, I cried and yet I smiled on every call that came during that time.

6:30 PM - 8: 30 PM: I went to Assi Ghat, to attend the Aarti, it was an unearthly experience and I clicked few with my Sony-Cybershot and also made a video to share my experience with ya.  I had Tomato chat and of course a hell lot of ciggys..oh my ciggy get increased on such occasion near ghats :D

Some times collage forms when u have a shaky hand with an Night vision D-cam 

Aarti at Assi 

Tomato Chat at Assi

9:30 PM: I took my roomie, my landlord and his family to Aman's ..where I celebrated my birthday calmly...I needed to give my frnds a pardy too but I postponed it to some later date...

Raghu, Bhavna and Bhabhi ( Landlord's family)

Bhaiya( My landlord) and Yogendra ( My roomie )... 

Me ?? I m clicking the photo ..dumbos :P

 

11:00 PM: I lied down...tired and exhausted, happy and disappointed ..thinking what I had done wrong...why people have to hurt me on my birthday..yet...it was so sweet of all my dear frnds who called..many of them called me even when I never ever called them on their's ..but they were sweethearts....and I fell asleep thinking the about the day..only to get up the next morning with swollen eyes and with limping leg due to exhaustion of playing cricket...

So this was my Birthday time-line ..A kinnda simple day when my phone rang a lot.. :D..the video of aarti ..u can watch here :)...Last photo is gift from a. sweetheart..Smirti..and thanx to all my blogger frnds who made me so elated with thier wishes on my last post.... :)

Ganga Aarti at Assi Ghat, Varanasi

My double Century...

It is my 200th post...It's been over three years here and it seems just a few days.... I guess this is what called passion of writing.... I had this post in mind for few weeks but damn I was so busy that I wasn't able to hit my 200 faster so I thought it to coincide with today...Yeah!! today is special for me...some of u kno..some of u don't and some of u don't care...but today is special for me nonetheless :D..but since I am off on Sundays ..I scheduled this post on Thursday..and now it is Saturday and I am still editing it so that it can be flawless tomorrow..means today :D ...Ahh! Neva mind :D... As Steve and Preeti said.. blog is for keeping memories that we might otherwise forget ..this lake of my dreams is all about my quest for becoming a better person...and for keeping my beautiful memories...about some lovely people who were so much in my life and now only their memories are there...and since I am having a severe memory loss probs ( Ohh! not like Ghazini :D) ...I don't want them to be under the dust cover of  my oblivion..

This blog was my soul mate for long..I used to brag..I used to cry and I used to laugh here and time changed ..I came with interaction of all those people whom I found to be so good at wat they do and that inspired me a lot...I had seen the happy days..the sad days...the show off days in Bloggerville...and believe me each moment here had wonderful effect on my life...and I made some beautiful relations with some beautiful souls...

So I thought why not mark this day as the special award day with my recognition of their special talent...a part of their overall persona...


So came up with five categories....and the sequence is random....

1) Honesty:

a) Rahul : This guy is just awesome...if u look at his sketches ..it will amaze u truly and so is the social message associated with it...He is there with me for quite a long now...and now he blogs quite regular...

b) Kashmira : A long way she had crossed from her post on tomatoes grown in her garden to some truly touching posts on today's reality... she is high on my list of admiration...


2) Philosopher: 

a) Keshi: She is a blogger who sometimes really keep me astonished with her posts..the struggle she did...the sincerity she shows and the themes she touches..everything is wonderful and so is her interaction with the blogmates...I know she is facing some personal issues with bloggerville..but I think these days will pass..as she is not only a beautiful soul and a philosopher inside....but also a fighter.

b) Meghna: Just go thorough her blog and tell me ..do u believe she is just 14...? Only one thing that tells her age is the innocence with which she touches the social issues...this kid is just awesome and she truly suits this category....

c) Ceedy: He is a matured writer and needs no introduction and the way he thinks is just so awesome... just go through his God Inc.

d) Steve: He was my inspiration and he deserves the award and believe me u need to jus go through his blog to kno what is the true essence of blogging...even if he says that it is all about farts and poops :D

3) Poets :

Not really my domain to judge them ...but I do write sumtimes ...jus go through my tags and u will find some...but these fellows ...are just amazingly awesome in it...

a) Pallavini : Even if I am all naughty in her comment section .. I was never gone untouched with her words and the way she describes love ...is just lovely...but thing is she is also as flowing as the flow of her poetries...and since I kno her quite well..she ain't that sophisticated too...she is much of a sweetheart.... and if u r committed for 10 years u ought to be one....and sumtimes she just says...dekh main unni smart nhi hoon...and I just love that moment of her simplicity and sincerity....a tough to find in new-age girls..and we are think-alike buddies...we sometimes come up with such weird thinking and that too together...it surprises both of us equally....:D

b) Preetilata : She is another wonderful poet and she has got diversity in her work..my god I never thought poetry  have so many varieties and believe me she is goddess in all .... but recently I discovered a new side of her...yeah! she is quite a responsible citizen too...that's amazing...and she I m sure will continue to surprise me more... :)

c) Aayushi: She is another 14...and she is goddess of dark poetries....the lines she writes are so gothic that even the damned-most soul will feel the crude pain in them...she will defn go deep and long....

d) Mystic Rose: I havn't got her name yet but she writes beautiful ..every word is so carefully measured...and so wonderfully selected...it makes me go all ga ga over her posts.... jus go thorough her blog and you will find.it out..and she is not only good in words but also in sense...

e) Lena : Though she is writing less now due to her job stress but she is a wonderful writer and poetess...and I kno u all kno her well..

f) Arti: She is professional in it and Wateva I say will be just drops in ocean..just go thorough her newly published book..and you will know about her...

g) Pooja: She writes seldom but when she writes u will feel the flow of beauty thorough them...and she is not afraid of experimenting and improving..

4) Crazy :

a) Abhishek: What he writes is just a fraction what he is... :D ..I know him personally ...and  we nicked him Sardar for some of  his unexplainable actions :P ( No fun for any community...it is just we say to him..)..but as a blogger he is quite matured and handsome too :D...but he is a mechanical engineer and that negates every quality of his to have a girl fan-followings around :P

b) Chan and Ne : Yeah ! I know they are both hopelessly romantic :P but believe me they are crazier than that too :D...I kno Ne quite too well and Chan I am getting to kno ...
but both being blonde ...satisfies the sufficient condition for this award.... :P and if u don't believe me just go through their blog and see the 100 truth post Chan wrote.. :D  and for Ne ...U need to go through our conversations which I can't make public as it will expose me too :P..after all ..she calls me a blonde for a reason of course..: D..though she is on a ON and OFF course...

c) Anjuli : She is crazy... :D ...just read a few posts of her and u will find all the emotions that exist in the world.. in them...and her motivational heroes..lol...but her quest of love with A B C D  and all ...my god ..when I fst read her..I was all confused...who is who and whom she is actually missing ....I won't say much as didi will kill me  for this :P..but she is socially responsible too...the way she worked in tandem with some people after Mumbai Blast was just awesome :)

d) Princess Mia: The way she describes her chocolate fantasies :P...u can't give her any other award  :P.. u need to go through them... u will kno :D..and now on Saturday..I just found her celebrating her own blog's birthday and that too belated :D... but she is a sweetheart... :P



5) Cute:

a)Smriti : She is adorable...heheheh one of my sincere reader and a vivid wirter and her love for F1 and Kimi is world famous :P ..she is the writer who writes about everything jus like me but the cuteness factor is above all the persons I kno in bloggerville :)..and the way she handles the theme of post is simply cute :P

b) Hemanth: I kno u all know him and all are infected with his cuteness :P..the way he dedicates the posts to his frnds and the beauty behind them is truly remarkable..



c) Niddzi: Drunk with her thoughts and u will find just yourself in her...she is the picture of todays girl and their beautiful thoughts..

d) Nidhi: She is cute..both by her appearances and her writings. I once read how wonderful she is in showing the way without confusing other people :P lol ...I am just speechless :P


e) Valencia : Nowadays she is busy in her school but jus go through her blog and and u will find what I am talking about...she comes up with such funny things ...and love..I won't comment much as I am so scared of her :P

f) Cécile's: She is just so cute and her mmjs were just so awesome..and she adores me so much..I hope she gets her French fries fast :P.... I kno sissy ...French fries aren't French..u told me that already :P..

e) Ananya: She is my lil sis ..though on and off from blogging...she is among the only few who had shared a writing space in my blog.

f) Darshan: Ohh he is a newcomer! and he is quite serious..but sumhow after reading his 100 tag..I find him lil cute :P ..i don kno why..but he is :P


So all the awardeed do collect ur award.. and keep it as a token of my appreciation..OHH! and feel free to distribute them to ur blogger frnds....but keep the criteria in ur mind.. and same goes for the cake below :)



Ohhh !!!  defn need to mention now ..Today is special because it is my birthday too :P and I am now 26 :P....means more than a quarter century old :P...khikhikhi :D..so pray for me and I love you all for bearing me so long...Muaaahhhh.. and a flying kiss for my sweetheart..who I guess will not call me today at 12 ...


Now Cindy see..How can I ruin the look on ya face.. knowing my bday is today  ..by showing you this post that day :D... ab bol mujhe Kamina :P ??

The flight of my life

I came just from Keshi's Blog after reading an amazing post "Black Box"...and here are few questions that were asked there...and am sharing the answers of the questions with the questions...
Just to give a small intro..it is about whether we had ever taken a decision that is so different from the general flow of thinking and whether if we had accepted the outcome with any regrets or not.....
Flight symbolizes the Decision and the Crash symbolizes  the failure....and I will lil bit elaborate the answers too

  
If your 'flight' were to end all of a sudden, what would it's Black Box Recording read? 

It will sound like...
"Bachao Bachao!..m gonna crash...
oops no one can understand hindi...
Mayday!! Mayday!! ... flight life is gonna crash..save my ass ..sourish..don't panic at least u flew..think of the other who never flew before their death...stop it asshole...I m dying before anyone cud hear my flight...ahhhhh why the fuck plane maker fitted a blackbox ..son of bitches cud had fitted a spare parachute instead ...why the hell flight life doesn't have ejecting seat....and why the hell it's crashing....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh boooooooom"

Really u will find this only I fear death more than anything...and I hate failures and I m always afraid of the failure still it never kept me out of jumping into troubles and taking bold steps

Did you fly at all, or were you on ground?

I flew defn...ask the local police and my college..they will tell u I flew a Boing 747  :P but nowadays I fly in my own imagination..waiting for the rite time to fly away in space in my rocket.

I was the main leader behind two of college strikes and in one strike regarding destruction of property and was booked under 7 Cases of Indian penal code (IPC) and then too I never stopped...even wen every time my ass was on line of rustication ...but it's lovely  to be ahead of a crowd following you...

 Did you experience the heights to know what the depths were?


People realize this feeling just before they crash...otherwise they always remain busy appreciating the beauty of heights .. and I crashed a lot :P..I shud be named just after Mr. Launchpad McQuack ..my fav disney ducktales character :P

I had taken several decision that were detrimental...but sumhow I always managed to get out in time..so  I fink the gracious god and the lady luck is with me...hehehehehe..so who is afraid of getting crashed..but believe me..I plan a lot..and that's the only thing that kept me out of troubles outta my regular decisions ..:P
 




Did you reach the pinnacle of every moment somehow, or did you not fly cos you feared a crash?

I've been in "Flight Love" more than 10 times and right now planning to get aboard the 11th ..what's ur guess the answer can be


Yeah it is correct. I've been in love for so many times and I regard myself as lucky to get so many good things in life including some of the most beautiful soul as my love..though they dumped me everytime..but I've all their beauty trapped inside my memoirs and I never forgot any of them nor did I kept them in my bad books..and I never stopped searching for another perfect soul...and believe me each time u have love in ur life a lot of moral character development happens and it improvises and purifies ur soul to be a better human being ...

 
Or did you touch the rainbows that your soul could ever reach, and then descend in grace when things were not meant to be?
 
I crashed ..I survived..and still I had every flight recordings safely stored in my memoirs with the same beauty while I was experiencing the flight...i fink the answer is yes..


Did you fly, swim, dive, climb, walk or sometimes did not move at all when you just couldn't?

if u see My flight fine record (that m talking about all those failures in love and life )...I've dived a thousand times :P

Did you go with the flow or did you just evade the flow altogether, in doubt and fear?

I m  a person..who always go with the flow with some occasional upstream swimming and that too more than often :p




What do you make out of this post? I'd love to know...... :)

Sourish