Life sucks!! if only it really did suck...

Recently, I realized that online world is not for me anymore... I feel so irritated with the all those facts that I used to do... chatting, texting ,sexting, tweeting, orkuting, online flirting, facebooking...Guess I am getting old for this kind of stuffs.. I seriously don't get the point when you have a laptop and you are practically net connected all the time when you are in office or in home...that is like almost all the non sleeping time of the life... then why the hell people need to be connected to internet while they are en-route to both these destination... I seriously feel like crap when people go to pay hefty 3G price to stream youtube videos...that you can get on your free net connection and transfer it to your mobile via Bluetooth or data cable....Camera on mobile I can understand.. but making MMS while you are making love...what the hell is that?... but anyways don't stop...I defn like to watch your girl in action.. ...*wink wink*

Yeah!!! this is just a random ranting... This is the first time in last 2 months I got time free for myself because the reactor I was working got leaked...so I thought why not catalog my life here...I know nobody reads...(Don't get presumptous that I am going to share some private life here.. I am pervert but I don't like other perverts..)...so everything will stay safe and preserved here forever....Oh! you know there is no word 'informations' ...it is only 'information'...the one thing that internet did..was screwing up my english....I was never the star english student of the class but was fair... but now...my english sucks big time....

Last two months many things happened... My little cousin brother got married...there i realized..opting for doing Ph.D. degree actually destroyed my life...but then I did a lot of masti.. I smoked, I drank, I used a lot of stuff.... I am not regretting...but I screwed up many lives connected to mine... my parents who wanted a son who will be right there as support when Daddy dear retires..my sister who wanted me to help her in times of pain.. my girl who wanted a steady married life...everyone waited for me to complete my education and start taking up responsibilities...but I was busy chatting... busy flirting online...playing stupid games..smoking weeds ...taking up contraband in se . smoking cigarettes.. drinking alcohol.. and busy watching porn and playing with myself when I am not doing all the above.. lol...loneliness sucks...  if only it had really sucked..life would have been much better... lol

But then ...what I have started .. I need to complete it... I just realized it little late ...when everything starting taking its toll on my sanity....Life sucks ..seriously big time...sometimes I think ..better to end this... but you know what if there is no reincarnation..even as pig (I am sure I will be no human next time)..you end up your life...you put misery to an end..but you actually go blank....you will never be able to taste good food..good wine .and good women...so see I am not a quitter...so even if this loneliness suck...everyone walk away from me..I will be there living this life with all the fun that I can have.....You know...there was a russian cosmonaut who was alone is space for more than a year alone in a space module...the module malfunctioned ..there  started a beeping sound...he was very irritated.. he tried his level best to stop this sound.. but he couldn't...he realized that he will go insane...then he decided to do something amazing.. he made himself fall in love with that annoying sound....when he returned ..he said the music was so good... it never let him feel lonely.. So...I have started loving these miseries of my life.. I have started loving myself... I have started loving my loneliness....May be one day I will not be lonely any more.. I will have miseries, loneliness and me as companions....

Lol!! And you say..... it took toll on you physically and mentally......Live my life... you will know what the term "taking toll" means...I just regret one thing...if only I'd noticed your fingers crossed.....

You know when every clutter you think start banging your head from inside.....just bang your head more... it will counteract the effect of you falling apart... listening  to some loud music defn feel soothing....J . Lo's 'On the floor' is my today's companion.....

How to write a love letter :P

The present technological advancements have changed the world for good or bad...i don kno..but it has completely destroyed one sweet litlle phenomena from the world and dat's Love Letter...

So the story started when S told me..why I havnt wrote her any love letter..I was amazed by the request..coz her mailbox was always full of my emails..which I was later clarified..that she wanted a traditional posted letter...

All the funny thoughts started flying over my mind..all the stories like how some one wrote letter wid chicken blood..how ppl draw beautiful shapes when the commit any error in writing sumfink..how ppl used to splash water on the letter..so that ppl hav the feeling dat he/she was crying while writing..how sweet imbalacemnt of high speed emotions :-}

So I thought ki chalo love letter likha jaye :D

So the points which I considered where

1)I must use writing pad..wid love u miss u written on it... :P
2) If I can find any scented paper..it wud be awesome..
3) Last but not the least..how m gonna send it to her house widout jeopardising our secret affair from being public..:D

So I thought.. I will send her a new year card..and will conceal the letter inside the cards "inside pages"..So mission 1 was to find such a cool card..which is good to send..can best show my feeelings and more or less should be so formal that it dont implicate her...so I went to card shop around 9 am...so had to roam for 1 hour to wait for the shops to open and 1 hour to search for such cards ..coz due to recent advancemnt in case of e cards people are not buying any so the price got steeper and supply got down...and dere were all cards like " mere jijaji", "mere bhaiya bhabhi ji" ..mere pujniya mataji avum pitaji "....baap re baap...it was so hard to find a card for a friend..leave alone make her special.. Yeah dere were cards for lovers too..at last went to Expressions to find a card having good more or less formal words ..having inside pages to conceal my letter..and shud be big enough to hide my snap.....phew!!!! ....

Then came the harder part..dere were no writing pads which hav decoprative papers..so had to move 30 kms to go to Archies main gallery to get the pad..coz none of the shops hav dose coz of advancemnt named email :P....

After getting both the card..i went up to hostel ..and in night I started thinking.....wat to write..it was my fst love letter..so it shud be special..so spent more thant 3 hours wid my printer to have special watermarks on the letter papers..then I started to write..but as in love..once u start writing words flows like wind...even if the wind speed in 5kmph only :D

So i wrote three pages of letter..wid some deliberate mistakes so that i can draw heart shape on dem.:D..and folded it nicely ..kept it inside the cards..and sealed dem wid fevistick.Den i wrote the header and footers:D to and from..wid best of lucks and all...and sealed the envelop....the moment i said ahh in relaxation ..the moment i saw that the third page had sum how found a gap to slip through..and it was lying dere as if to mock me..Ahhhhhhhhhh I had to unsealed the whole damn envelop and the card..then i inserted it in the gaps..sealed dem back..Then went to next day ...DTDC courier..and posted it to her..

I was happy that an ordeal has passed..so as usual it took two days to reach it to Delhi..wid 'S' opening it..but my sweetheart was so anxious about the card..and known that card was deliberately searched to be non implicative..she literally announced every1 in home dat her card is coming...:D

Within a few minutes..she rang me again.."Betooo card mein background mein valentine likhahai..and dher saare love u and all likhe hai " ..Gosh..card was written frnd only..wat happened..then i came to kno that the cards background picture was all hearts and love :D


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She is right now having a turmoil in her house due to dat letter :D..yet she is so sweet dat she said " ok beta! koi problem nahi ."

Muaaaah!!! shweet heart!!......and abhi uska fone bhi aaya tha :D





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So if u want to test your love..write a love letter:D


take care