Life sucks!! if only it really did suck...

Recently, I realized that online world is not for me anymore... I feel so irritated with the all those facts that I used to do... chatting, texting ,sexting, tweeting, orkuting, online flirting, facebooking...Guess I am getting old for this kind of stuffs.. I seriously don't get the point when you have a laptop and you are practically net connected all the time when you are in office or in home...that is like almost all the non sleeping time of the life... then why the hell people need to be connected to internet while they are en-route to both these destination... I seriously feel like crap when people go to pay hefty 3G price to stream youtube videos...that you can get on your free net connection and transfer it to your mobile via Bluetooth or data cable....Camera on mobile I can understand.. but making MMS while you are making love...what the hell is that?... but anyways don't stop...I defn like to watch your girl in action.. ...*wink wink*

Yeah!!! this is just a random ranting... This is the first time in last 2 months I got time free for myself because the reactor I was working got leaked...so I thought why not catalog my life here...I know nobody reads...(Don't get presumptous that I am going to share some private life here.. I am pervert but I don't like other perverts..)...so everything will stay safe and preserved here forever....Oh! you know there is no word 'informations' ...it is only 'information'...the one thing that internet did..was screwing up my english....I was never the star english student of the class but was fair... but now...my english sucks big time....

Last two months many things happened... My little cousin brother got married...there i realized..opting for doing Ph.D. degree actually destroyed my life...but then I did a lot of masti.. I smoked, I drank, I used a lot of stuff.... I am not regretting...but I screwed up many lives connected to mine... my parents who wanted a son who will be right there as support when Daddy dear retires..my sister who wanted me to help her in times of pain.. my girl who wanted a steady married life...everyone waited for me to complete my education and start taking up responsibilities...but I was busy chatting... busy flirting online...playing stupid games..smoking weeds ...taking up contraband in se . smoking cigarettes.. drinking alcohol.. and busy watching porn and playing with myself when I am not doing all the above.. lol...loneliness sucks...  if only it had really sucked..life would have been much better... lol

But then ...what I have started .. I need to complete it... I just realized it little late ...when everything starting taking its toll on my sanity....Life sucks ..seriously big time...sometimes I think ..better to end this... but you know what if there is no reincarnation..even as pig (I am sure I will be no human next time)..you end up your life...you put misery to an end..but you actually go blank....you will never be able to taste good food..good wine .and good women...so see I am not a quitter...so even if this loneliness suck...everyone walk away from me..I will be there living this life with all the fun that I can have.....You know...there was a russian cosmonaut who was alone is space for more than a year alone in a space module...the module malfunctioned ..there  started a beeping sound...he was very irritated.. he tried his level best to stop this sound.. but he couldn't...he realized that he will go insane...then he decided to do something amazing.. he made himself fall in love with that annoying sound....when he returned ..he said the music was so good... it never let him feel lonely.. So...I have started loving these miseries of my life.. I have started loving myself... I have started loving my loneliness....May be one day I will not be lonely any more.. I will have miseries, loneliness and me as companions....

Lol!! And you say..... it took toll on you physically and mentally......Live my life... you will know what the term "taking toll" means...I just regret one thing...if only I'd noticed your fingers crossed.....

You know when every clutter you think start banging your head from inside.....just bang your head more... it will counteract the effect of you falling apart... listening  to some loud music defn feel soothing....J . Lo's 'On the floor' is my today's companion.....