MEET JOE BLACK

An incredible movie that today I watched for the 19 th time.

Meet Joe Black.

A movie so romantic so lovely that I cry buckets even remembering every detail of what's gonna happen next...
Death can be so beautiful..who else can portray better than Brad Pitt..He was so handsome..there was a line in this movie..I wish I cud had said to him if I were a woman..

"There's something so indescribably sexy...about you standing in the middle of a crowd. I could make love to you right here."

The grace was equally matched by Anthony Hopkins, who played the role of father and a responsible business man. It was so enthralling when he actually fought with death on its terrain because the matter was of her daughter.


Both character were so strong ... I love the following moments best in the movie...which portrayed how both the characters were equally powerful..

When Bill (B) asked Joe (J)...how is managing to stay on vacation..when he is the death and he has so many responsibilities ..Joe answered..

B- how's your work going, I mean, elsewhere?

J- While you were shaving this morning, you weren't just shaving.

B- What do you mean?
J- You were hatching ideas, making plans, arriving at decisions, right?

B- Yeah, I guess so.

J- So you understand the concept. While part of you is busy doing one thing, another part of you is doing another, perhaps even attending to the problems of your work.

J- Correct?
B- Of course.

J- So you understand the idea. Congratulations, Bill.
Now multiply that by infinity, take that to the depths of forever, and you still will barely have
a glimpse of what I'm talking about..

When Death asked Bill..wat in his love for Bill's daughter he is missing.....

B -"Trust, responsibility, taking the weight for your choices and feelings...and spending the rest of your life living up to them, and above all, not hurting the object of your love."

J - "So that's love according to William Parrish?"

B -"Multiply it by infinity and take it to the depth of forever, and you will still have barely a glimpse of what I'm talking about."

J - "Those were my words."
B- "They're mine now."

The love between Susan and Joe was so romantic..He knew that
she loves him..she knew that he loves her..but she didn't knew that the guy she was so impressed actually was the Death..and he knew that she actually loves the person in him not what he does which he can't quit..
So they both said " Thank you for loving me"
As Joe was grateful to her of letting him feel wat love is... and Susan was grateful to find the person whom she can live life deliriously happy...and both were so grateful being loved...
It was so romantic


The background score, the elegancy, the costumes , the lights, the symphony, the script..everything is awesome about this movie..I just love it..

There were several moments in the movie where I actually admired how wonderful the script writers are...and the background symphony ..it actually soothed me so well from my whole exhaustion of this hot and weary afternoon..that I am feeling relaxed than ever before

Sharing the symphony with you...I know you will love it...

Happy New Year (Shubho Naboborsho)

First of all I wish you all a very Happy new year.
In the Bengali calender, New year starts from April 14th or 15 th, which depends upon the lunar calender.

The first day is Poila Baishak.

I know many of the lunar calender of different states are also celebrating their first unveiling. So very Happy New year to you all too..and to my dear fellow bloggers who never missed any moment celebrating with me.

This day have a special significance in every Bengali's life. Today businessmen start new ventures and new account sheets, so it is the month of sale of old stocks ( Anjuli di stocks ka matlab..dukano ka stock..aapka BSE type ka nhi :P ) ...and if you had ever been in Kolkata during this time, you will find kolkatans hell busy with bargaining. The roads hell jammed, atmosphere filled hawkers shouts and so much of light.

With time it changed it's meaning in my life.

When I was kid, it was the time of excitement of getting new dresses , when I was in my early adoloscent age, it was the time of watching girls; when I was in my middle and late teenage, it was the time of buying new pairs of jeans and chance maring hotties :P ; when I was just Adult, it was the time of roaming with my gf and hiding from her and my parents.
Now, with increasing maturity, I found myself literally forgetting the day itself. lol

So let's go together with my new year day :P

The day started with a hearty Boy's talk with Samby, then I went to sleep at 4 AM. Then I woke up with a call from Sarah, she was wishing me a happy new year, but I was so sleepy then that I answered her call and slept talking to her :P. She was pissed :P

Today, as it coincided with Navratri's last day, I was on fast. So I actually slept a bit much. I woke up again when dad called me to wish me New year :P,and I looked at my clock to fing its 11 AM. So I decided, lets sleep for one more hour :P, the next time I woke up when I was having dinner with Cindy in my dreams in her wedding day, when she spilled the hot soup on me :P. I glanced my watch, it was 1:30 PM. I understood the reason of such a dream when I found an Elephant race going on my stomach :D ,heheheh..I was dead hungry then :P.
So i decided to quit my bed and went to the bathroom with my brush, then i had my bath,got ready and then went to the Mandir.
After the Puja, I decided to take some watery food..so I had one Lassi..but was so hungry then that I ended up finishing three frootis and two cold drinks by 6 PM. lol
So much of having a fast:P
Then I went to my supervisor's place to wish him , there he told me that why are you on fast today...today is Poila Baishakh...you should be gorging today :D
So, I decided top break my fast in the night, so I went to Ming's garden , a restuarant famous for its chinese.

In Ming, waiter came up with menu..and there was nothing I can order that I can eat alone...So I decided to taek a mini meal there. It was the worst meal I ever had. It was full of cabbages :P..I tried searching for the noodles but couldn't find any :P., but the sizzling brownie was awesome :)
There was this hottie chick, who was sitting alone in the adjacent table. So my time in the restuatrant passed by smoothly :P upto the end when I broke into a quarrel with the manager who refused to give me our college discount as the bill was already out. :| But I managed myself not hitting the poor guy for Rs. 20 of the discount :P, then also people call me impatient. huh :|.

I returned back , and found that my light is gone again for the seventh time. It came just an hour ago..:)

So it was a wonderful day :P and the best part was the hot chick..she was really hot. :P

I started a new poll..so plz all of you must answer it ....
:)
Love you all

A song I am in love with nowadays..if you want the song.. ask ..I will mail it to u :)

Atif Aslam songs
Pehli Nazar lyrics

A reason to live for...

He was in his start of Bachelor's and she was in end of master's...Everytime he wanted to tell her about his feeling..he just couldn't muster the courage to tell her...
She was kinnda hottie in the college..starting from the freshers to college caps all had secret desires for her..he always thought..wat's new in me..may be she knew me form my childhood days..but she may had known many...she was so proud of her beauty that actually she never cared for any of the feelings towards her..he understood this coz he knew if she started caring she actually will have a whole yellow book to care about...No he had her moments wid her..when he was assigned to volunteer as security for the college fest..and she said hiii to him..it was the word which echoed still in his mind...


He shrugged and smiled. He was wondering why the sudden thought of her. He smiled again remembering he do this quite often.
He was all ready for the interview..seven long years had passed since..he was now among the topmost independent web developers ..and he had go this offer letter for the topmost company in web developing...he checked his bag..everything was ready..he is ready to fire up....


"hello! Vishal!"
"Hello mam!"

He couldn't believe that actually it was her the HR Manager in front of him..
he was feeling weak in his knees..it was too much for him to handle...she hadn't changed a bit..she was the same...same smile..same fragrance around her...

"God! you haven't changed your perfume too.."
"Excuse me" she was not able to make out anything of his mumble...
"Nothing mam! Actually I am feeling a little nervous."
" Do I know you from before?"
"Oh God!! she actually remembers me..." , he thought.
"Yes Mam! We were in same society and we were in same college too"
" Is this You? Vishu...? Oh my God! u changed a lot..who can say that it's the same frail cute boy..u have actually grown up to a hunk ..u kno dat?? "
" Yes." " Oh! I mean no!" " May be"....He was not at all prepared for this interview.


" You are just perfect for here!" she was checking his credential.
" what are you looking at?" wen she caught him staring her..
" Nothing! I am sorry..actually I was not..but m sorry" his words got muffled as She caught him the moment he raised her eyes from her fingers on tables to her face...actually she caught him the exact second when his eyes were on her cleavage while moving up from her fingers to her face..
"You boys! you people never changed...still the same as you were in college" she laughed..
" I am sorry." he got that point that he cant explain it to her and moreover her laughter was more captivating than her whole persona.

" You are selected!" " But that doesn't mean that I approved you of checking me up." she gave a nice grin.
" I am sorry! Oh! I meant thank you"
"Thank you for wat?" she asked it a little loud.
" No!I meant..I am not thank you" "I meant for the job." He was actually dying of embarrassment of getting caught in wrong action. He wanted to get off the chair and kill himself.

" Oh! sit..we havn't discussed your work " "So, where in town?"
"Actually! I was not very sure of the job..so didn't thought about it"
"I will arrange for you company house for now..till you get a nice place." "What are you doing tonight?" "Dinner??"

Wat's that..did she said dinner..Is he actually going for a date wid the lady of his dreams..

"I have a lot to catch up with you."she asked, " Vishu! You Ok?"

"Yeah! Dinner is good...I will pay. I insist"
"Who told you that I was gonna pay?" " You got the job! it's your treat time" She started laughing
" Yeah! It was meant that only". He was again caught off guard! He wanted to kill himself for saying about paying and all....



6 years had passed since then. He was standing at Flower shop. Thoughts started flying over again in his head.

" Vishu! Movie today?." "Best hall in town!" she smiled. "Pick me up at seven. Will you?"
"Yeah Shalini! Sure". He smiled.

Six months had passed since his joining and it was their 5 th official date, though they had several luncheons.

He went to her home. She opened the door.. she was not ready yet. "Is she not well! May be she dropped the movie plan" thoughts started flying but was abruptly stopped by the sound followed by her shriek "Oh God! my popcorns!"
"Wat's that..movie in her house." He never entered her house..he used to pick her up from doors only, and mostly she used to pick him up from his apartment, as he hadn't had his car until last week.

"Godfather" " you told me it's your fav"
"But I think we had to fetch up the popkorn first". He laughed as he looked at the kitchen floor.
"Yeah! it is a mess! jus like me" she looked at her disheveled hairs.
"No! you are looking beautiful!. He smiled, removing the hairs from her face.
"Don't you dare flirt with me." she smiled back.

Movie started. She snuggled up to him and took a snap of them wid her camera. "I just don't want to miss the moment. ", she smiled and he caressed her hairs falling on her face.

An hour past she was cuddled up in his arms and actually got asleep. He couldn't believe that he was actually watching the movie for last one hour and didn't noticed that she had fallen asleep in his arms. He slowly went for the remote and switched it off. He didn't wanted her to get awake by gunshots of the movie he had watched a thousand time.
She was looking so beautiful asleep in his arms. Minutes later she opened her eyes and found him looking her face. " I told you. You don't have permission to stare" she smiled.
No! Actually! you were looking so be.." His words muffled as he found her lips on his. They kissed. Every minute was like an eternity to him. They cuddled up. She removed his shirt and put his hands on her.

"wat's dat? r u a virgin?" she was laughing heartily when he removed his hand from her.
"No!" He screamed, then a moment later " Yeah! I am.. ". He was caught again off guard.
"Oh! that's sweet." she kissed him again, only knowing that she had to take the lead then.
They made love. She couldn't believe that he was actually asking her then, " Is it paining?" she was smiling thinking about the wonderful moment after so long in her alone life.

" Who is that?? " he looked at the photo frame and asked surprisingly.
"My husband! He died three months of our marriage 3 years back!" "He was returning and got in a hit and run case in Florida." she couldn't believe that she was crying, it was so long. He was his love for 2 years before they got married against his and her families wishes.

He held her in his arms and kissed her on her forehead.After a moment of silence
"I am sorry!" " I was drunk that day". " I didn't saw him until he was hit. I was so drunk and afraid"

"Get out!" "Get out Vishal." " I don't want to see you anymore"

He slowly got up and moved out. He moved out her life the very next morning.He wrote her a one liner and he dropped at her doorsteps and moved out...

"I am sorry! I love you and will miss you"



It started raining! The monsoon had just hit the city. He paid for the flowers. He got the letter three days back from a lawyer. He opened for checking the address. His eyes filled up wid tears as he caught the line.

" Shalini Verma died of cancer last week and her Will make you a trustee for the the property she left behind. "

He folded back the letter, called for the cab.

"Saint Patrick School."

An hour later. He was sitting in the Principals office.

"Sir! She is Vinni Verma"

He looked back towards the door. A little girl was standing there. She was a little doll with same hairs and same eyes. He went to her and hugged her and handed her the flowers.

" Mommy told me to give it to my daddy when he will come to take me home "
" How do you know me sweetheart? "

She handed him the envelope. It had the same photograph, that they had taken on that night, wid a line written on it's back, "Mommy loves you baby! " .
A note fell from the envelope. He picked it up and opened and found his own handwriting in it..

"I am sorry! I love you and will miss you"
with an added note..
"You could had waited! You snatched my love twice. Just take care of my last love. She misses you just like I missed you"

He held her up in his arms. He found his love back once again in his life and a reason to live for..

Ahh!! It's hell.. wen u can't say anything at all...

I should have seen it coming when roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye
Baby, ain’t it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
You’re really on your knees, when you think you’re standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong, yeah I’m wrong,
This ain’t a love song.
.........................- Jon Bon Jovi

My Confession

So I have got wat i deserved ..loneliness

so this is wat I did to her......

I started the whole relationship wid her by faking my emotions..my love for her ... dat I found her a tough to get and I used up all my tricks to get her love me...jus to win her..

but wen she started loving me...everything changed..i fell for her..i started loving her like anything...my morning never started if she dint call..I loved her like anything...I grew up a wall around me so that she gets protected from the real me and I can bury my real self..
she promised me to leave her family for me too..

but den one day .. day which was very special for me..she succumbed to her family pressure about deleting me outta her life..and she told me..i cant be wid u anemore..
she was silent for two days..den she started the courtesy calls..and den she too realised dat it was hard for her to leave me...

but these days of love silence had broken those wall..I started feeling insecure about her..I was going to take a vital decision and I found myself unsure dat if I proceed further in this ..may be one day wen i will be in no point of return..she might succumbed to her family again..and I wud be left alone..my real me started kicking out..telling me everytime dat i faked the start wid her..one day she will kno and she will leave me forever..it's better to take her out ur life..my all those violent urges returned back..i started getting afraid of the term love and my real me started to make this love dissapear..I needed to tell her the truth..becoz she was such a nice girl..she dint deserved to be dumped ...like I dumped many and got dumped due to dis...so I needed to put my real self to her..dat the whole relation was based on lies..
So I told her all that....

she then asked me
"how cud u do dis to me.."?

she was right..and I dint had any answer..I told her dat i dont know..I never took rejection well..
and she said.." but I loved u "
and I found myself staring at the horrible picture dat she had in her eyes..

I am shit a gross piece of shit....
but cant do it anemore..I jus felt at that moment how important she was for me...and how badly I want her back in my life..but I know things wont never be the same again. so I cried I cried and I cried and i decided and asked her to go out of my life so that she never gets anething worser than dis..
I left her...and i left my soul wid her..now I feel myself jus like a fucking moron...but i feel confortable to let out the truth..may be dis is my remorse ..may be this will be my salvation.. to let u all know..how ugly one can be and how good one can pretend to be...I so messed up rite now..

Curse me ...abuse me..

But believe me she was an innocent victim of my real self..an ugly monster..whom I just want to finish forever...
She is an angel and really don't deserve a monster like me...so it's better I stay away for now or may be forever...

This is my probably my last post....and I wanted to clear one thing that..wat I did to her is unforgivable and she was and she is... jus perfect....

love n luck to u all....