I wanna be oblivious....but I might not ever :-|

There are so many things swarming my mind...of which my longest score on loneliness and being single...down with flu...getting backstabbed by dear frnds...left alone in darkness and all the negative vibes are topping the list.... but I guess each one has to live his own life...and u can't expect that all will help ur cause... at least wen I m not shifting  my gears in their direction.....

I'm so jealous of their obliviousness towards life.. :-)

Nowadays...loneliness and nothing to do is killing me... and the serious shit is this flu that I m caught up with...son of bitch  is not letting me even smoke a fag ..leave alone joints or other things...

oh!! btw there is a new party drug available cheap ...it is named YABA... and believe me the kick it gives on and after taking that is seriously awesome....thx to Headlines Today for its free publicity...now even I ..who is living in a small city know abt it... just one added info...it is addictive and it affects ur sexual stimulation...it is not ecstasy it is sexctasy so beware it might make u impotent without it for ever.....and a lil overdose can burst ur nerve ...so if u wanna do this high illegal stuff... then look before u leap....

today I got a phone from a long lost frnd...and she was getting married and guess what..like all time she said u were so coward then...u could have proposed me at least once...and I laughed...she laughed and we changed the topic....so everyone is getting married....I guess it is high time for me to join a job and settle finally...oh btw my fellowship is gonna increase to non-taxable Rs 29,000 per month...and I am eagerly waitng for the hike.... I guess now I can buy scotch instead of buying whiskeys in pub ....

love u all ... and if u have skipped to the end of  post..avoiding reading all the above...u did a great thing...now shut my blog off and move on  to the next blog.. lol

PS: the pic is a low resolution cybershot...if u need a higher resolution u can always ask for it mailing in 

sourish.rs.bce@itbhu.ac.in

So it was Independence day on15th... and I wrote no patriotic post...as I was down with fever... so thinking of writing a patriotic post....

Naaah!!! I don't feel like writing one...though I so seriously wanna update the blog...but right now nuffin is coming in my mind..moreover I 'm having terrible weakness. and don't want to type anything....

AHH!!! Monday is such a pain in the ass....

Let me try out a 55 fiction then

She was in tears beside him and blood was oozing fast out of her veins. It was just a revolution for some but instead it blooded out her whole life. She knew he is not going to smile anymore and she knew that no one gonna part them ever now. She kissed him final goodbyes.

PS: It is my first attempt writing a 55 fiction...and gosh! it was tough...

Delicate

I know you will love this song..  

And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

                                                 -Damien Rice

Angry and depressed

If you are not going to tell me in the start what I need to do...how I am supposed to know what I need to do.... ???


I hate these govt. system of " Chalta hai boss! tension na lo " and I am really pissed off ...my degree is at stake and right now I am double depressed and triple Angry....

Nostalgia ...

Sorry for the last post..I know many of you got disturbed reading... but that's what I am .. I don't pretend and I don't lie... 

I m suffering from a mild flu attack...  Naah! not the swine flu :P..u ain't gonna get rid of me so easy :D and moreover my lab is leading the research on it...so no way I am gonna die  of swine flu...

Few weeks back..I visited my folks..and was going through the family album...and you won't believe..how sweet I was wen I was a kiddo :P


So sharing the pics with little introductions.... 

 

My fst year in Cochin.. and don't enlarge the pic to see the wee-wee ..u naughty girls :P ( just FYI ..it is not that small now...lol ) 

My Annaprashan.. an occasion when the child is given whole cereals for the fst time ..and the other sweethearts are my cousin sis and right extreme is my own sis..

 

My fst sports award :P and I was sweetheart then too :P

  

My fst drawing and calligraphy awards 

  

My fst shot to fame..He is CMD of IPCL Baroda..and I played the role of engineer of a petrochemical plant in lower kindergarten.. 

 

My fst award of a metallurgy's quiz ( left is Diptendu, centre is Amartya, and I am the right one ;) Class IX)

 

My fst National level debate award..cash prize of Rs.1000.

  

My fst sanskrit drama..I was playing the role of Vishnu in the centre

  

My fst english drama ( the man with the gun..true mafia guy :P ) 

And Believe me I am a sweetheart now too  :P

PS: Don't go to crowded place without any mask...Swine flu is spreading fast

Another sad post...

Last few days I am waking up early in the morning and I m spending a helluva time in Ghats of Banaras.. ( river banks)...I am drinking a lot and I am smoking a lot... and I doing hash quite often..and I really don't know why I wanna get high... this morning when I woke up.. I was all banged up...my head was aching my heart was beating fast...I was sweating high and I was having some thousands thoughts waitng to barge in my head and explode it but really was not able to apprehend any of them..

Even frndhship day went off quick... I wished some close frnds and I then switched off my cell ...and slept the whole evening....

I don't know what is happneing to me..i wanna cry out loud..but I don't knw what should i cry about...i seriously need some anti depressant...and I don't wanna do morphine again...nor I wanna take any coke...because last time I bled hard after overdosing them to meself..

I don't know what I m worried about..but I guess I do need to take some time off to some place to have some great food and sex...but I m all deficient in money and u don't get food and sex if you don't have any....

I am all banged up now...I guess it's enough of blabbering... 

But I need all of you to pray for a girl who I din't know prior to her death but her death moved me up very hard...she committed suicide with a note that reads sumthing like......
 " Mom needs kidney badly and my other siblings need mom more than what I need... but she won' take my kidneys to live ..so I am committing suicide..so that she can't refuse to take my kidneys now..."

Only if she knew that kidneys from dead people can't be transplanted.... 

May God bless her soul and take some good deeds that I did in my life ..add them to her to give her a place in heaven... and forgive her for committing suicide...

Love u sweetheart from core of my heart..and I sincerely pray if u ever take birth on earth..let me be ur father ...

Ps: I seriously need you to pray for the girl...

too many chick flicks

Nowadays I m watching too many chick flicks...and feeling more lonely ...I guess I have to stop watching them...

Oh btw ...! if ya had switched on ur TV earlier today...it was all about the Assamese woman beating shit out of the army guy who tried to molest her.... and that I call a hot chick....

and above all...I am feeling all jealous of Hemanth as he is leaving our single boys group...

Yeah!!!! he is getting married

lol

Congratulation Hemanth... and I am not getting reservations on or before the day...So till now it is a May be :P