My double Century...

It is my 200th post...It's been over three years here and it seems just a few days.... I guess this is what called passion of writing.... I had this post in mind for few weeks but damn I was so busy that I wasn't able to hit my 200 faster so I thought it to coincide with today...Yeah!! today is special for me...some of u kno..some of u don't and some of u don't care...but today is special for me nonetheless :D..but since I am off on Sundays ..I scheduled this post on Thursday..and now it is Saturday and I am still editing it so that it can be flawless tomorrow..means today :D ...Ahh! Neva mind :D... As Steve and Preeti said.. blog is for keeping memories that we might otherwise forget ..this lake of my dreams is all about my quest for becoming a better person...and for keeping my beautiful memories...about some lovely people who were so much in my life and now only their memories are there...and since I am having a severe memory loss probs ( Ohh! not like Ghazini :D) ...I don't want them to be under the dust cover of  my oblivion..

This blog was my soul mate for long..I used to brag..I used to cry and I used to laugh here and time changed ..I came with interaction of all those people whom I found to be so good at wat they do and that inspired me a lot...I had seen the happy days..the sad days...the show off days in Bloggerville...and believe me each moment here had wonderful effect on my life...and I made some beautiful relations with some beautiful souls...

So I thought why not mark this day as the special award day with my recognition of their special talent...a part of their overall persona...


So came up with five categories....and the sequence is random....

1) Honesty:

a) Rahul : This guy is just awesome...if u look at his sketches ..it will amaze u truly and so is the social message associated with it...He is there with me for quite a long now...and now he blogs quite regular...

b) Kashmira : A long way she had crossed from her post on tomatoes grown in her garden to some truly touching posts on today's reality... she is high on my list of admiration...


2) Philosopher: 

a) Keshi: She is a blogger who sometimes really keep me astonished with her posts..the struggle she did...the sincerity she shows and the themes she touches..everything is wonderful and so is her interaction with the blogmates...I know she is facing some personal issues with bloggerville..but I think these days will pass..as she is not only a beautiful soul and a philosopher inside....but also a fighter.

b) Meghna: Just go thorough her blog and tell me ..do u believe she is just 14...? Only one thing that tells her age is the innocence with which she touches the social issues...this kid is just awesome and she truly suits this category....

c) Ceedy: He is a matured writer and needs no introduction and the way he thinks is just so awesome... just go through his God Inc.

d) Steve: He was my inspiration and he deserves the award and believe me u need to jus go through his blog to kno what is the true essence of blogging...even if he says that it is all about farts and poops :D

3) Poets :

Not really my domain to judge them ...but I do write sumtimes ...jus go through my tags and u will find some...but these fellows ...are just amazingly awesome in it...

a) Pallavini : Even if I am all naughty in her comment section .. I was never gone untouched with her words and the way she describes love ...is just lovely...but thing is she is also as flowing as the flow of her poetries...and since I kno her quite well..she ain't that sophisticated too...she is much of a sweetheart.... and if u r committed for 10 years u ought to be one....and sumtimes she just says...dekh main unni smart nhi hoon...and I just love that moment of her simplicity and sincerity....a tough to find in new-age girls..and we are think-alike buddies...we sometimes come up with such weird thinking and that too together...it surprises both of us equally....:D

b) Preetilata : She is another wonderful poet and she has got diversity in her work..my god I never thought poetry  have so many varieties and believe me she is goddess in all .... but recently I discovered a new side of her...yeah! she is quite a responsible citizen too...that's amazing...and she I m sure will continue to surprise me more... :)

c) Aayushi: She is another 14...and she is goddess of dark poetries....the lines she writes are so gothic that even the damned-most soul will feel the crude pain in them...she will defn go deep and long....

d) Mystic Rose: I havn't got her name yet but she writes beautiful ..every word is so carefully measured...and so wonderfully selected...it makes me go all ga ga over her posts.... jus go thorough her blog and you will find.it out..and she is not only good in words but also in sense...

e) Lena : Though she is writing less now due to her job stress but she is a wonderful writer and poetess...and I kno u all kno her well..

f) Arti: She is professional in it and Wateva I say will be just drops in ocean..just go thorough her newly published book..and you will know about her...

g) Pooja: She writes seldom but when she writes u will feel the flow of beauty thorough them...and she is not afraid of experimenting and improving..

4) Crazy :

a) Abhishek: What he writes is just a fraction what he is... :D ..I know him personally ...and  we nicked him Sardar for some of  his unexplainable actions :P ( No fun for any community...it is just we say to him..)..but as a blogger he is quite matured and handsome too :D...but he is a mechanical engineer and that negates every quality of his to have a girl fan-followings around :P

b) Chan and Ne : Yeah ! I know they are both hopelessly romantic :P but believe me they are crazier than that too :D...I kno Ne quite too well and Chan I am getting to kno ...
but both being blonde ...satisfies the sufficient condition for this award.... :P and if u don't believe me just go through their blog and see the 100 truth post Chan wrote.. :D  and for Ne ...U need to go through our conversations which I can't make public as it will expose me too :P..after all ..she calls me a blonde for a reason of course..: D..though she is on a ON and OFF course...

c) Anjuli : She is crazy... :D ...just read a few posts of her and u will find all the emotions that exist in the world.. in them...and her motivational heroes..lol...but her quest of love with A B C D  and all ...my god ..when I fst read her..I was all confused...who is who and whom she is actually missing ....I won't say much as didi will kill me  for this :P..but she is socially responsible too...the way she worked in tandem with some people after Mumbai Blast was just awesome :)

d) Princess Mia: The way she describes her chocolate fantasies :P...u can't give her any other award  :P.. u need to go through them... u will kno :D..and now on Saturday..I just found her celebrating her own blog's birthday and that too belated :D... but she is a sweetheart... :P



5) Cute:

a)Smriti : She is adorable...heheheh one of my sincere reader and a vivid wirter and her love for F1 and Kimi is world famous :P ..she is the writer who writes about everything jus like me but the cuteness factor is above all the persons I kno in bloggerville :)..and the way she handles the theme of post is simply cute :P

b) Hemanth: I kno u all know him and all are infected with his cuteness :P..the way he dedicates the posts to his frnds and the beauty behind them is truly remarkable..



c) Niddzi: Drunk with her thoughts and u will find just yourself in her...she is the picture of todays girl and their beautiful thoughts..

d) Nidhi: She is cute..both by her appearances and her writings. I once read how wonderful she is in showing the way without confusing other people :P lol ...I am just speechless :P


e) Valencia : Nowadays she is busy in her school but jus go through her blog and and u will find what I am talking about...she comes up with such funny things ...and love..I won't comment much as I am so scared of her :P

f) Cécile's: She is just so cute and her mmjs were just so awesome..and she adores me so much..I hope she gets her French fries fast :P.... I kno sissy ...French fries aren't French..u told me that already :P..

e) Ananya: She is my lil sis ..though on and off from blogging...she is among the only few who had shared a writing space in my blog.

f) Darshan: Ohh he is a newcomer! and he is quite serious..but sumhow after reading his 100 tag..I find him lil cute :P ..i don kno why..but he is :P


So all the awardeed do collect ur award.. and keep it as a token of my appreciation..OHH! and feel free to distribute them to ur blogger frnds....but keep the criteria in ur mind.. and same goes for the cake below :)



Ohhh !!!  defn need to mention now ..Today is special because it is my birthday too :P and I am now 26 :P....means more than a quarter century old :P...khikhikhi :D..so pray for me and I love you all for bearing me so long...Muaaahhhh.. and a flying kiss for my sweetheart..who I guess will not call me today at 12 ...


Now Cindy see..How can I ruin the look on ya face.. knowing my bday is today  ..by showing you this post that day :D... ab bol mujhe Kamina :P ??

Wait for the update on sunday......

Sunday I am scheduling my 200th post to come out...so wait for it...
but this post is not that dull....
This post is all about a boy who started blogging.. with a reason not heard ever before....

So the truth of my start of blogging....heheheheh don't judge me ... I wasn't born mature :D

One day back to the time when I started my blog....I used to be too horny about net and its utilisation for pornography....and I was randomly surfing for something where i hit upon a blog...it was named Steve's Nude Memphis....and that day it changed my outlook...he was a guy who wrote a post about his neighborhood and moments of a woman he admired suffering from breast cancer ...it was just lovely and I was so moved that I wanted to comment on it ...but the blogger restricted it to blog users only and there I registered my fst blog just only to comment  in his and named mine " My Naked life isn't shit" .u can see on his comment section my name written on it with exact reason...I gave you here...and there after more than three years have passed and I never turned back.......and continued wrting off and on...There were enormous traffic once but I had to take a blog break..ahh u kno broken heart and its effect...and then I had to change my blog url as I din't wanted those users who never visited my blog coz they think they are some enormously famous writers and paying my blog a visit is low standard for them but they do had me in their blog list..just to show their kindness to me...so for those readers it is better to be non existent and so I changed my url so that they needn't bother about me anymore...and really they still don't care :D..so a nice decision..yet it affected my blog traffic...but I guess it ain't that big a problem as I get to write my view and keep it safe forever ....so...it was a really a long journey....isn't??.

and one more good news....

Keshi is back.....and with new energy :-)  ..I guess now my bloggervilla will be complete with two of my close gals back to blogging...

Random

There is a scheduled outage in blogspot today...so won't be writing much but I don't have much of readers left...so I guess will not be much affected :D..
There are five things right now running on my mind.......

1) The Gandhi boy spreading communal  hatred... Amazing...isn't..I thought good nature comes with genes...

2) Read an article about human cruelty where an underaged teen was raped and torched alive...some times I do think of my stand on death penalty for rapists...

3) Advani and Manmohan battle...true both were on their stands... as 1984 and the Godhra kand ...we know both of them and still we don't have any choices for the PM's post...I think time for the younger generation to step in..but Rahul is too politically immature...

4) Two lady professional..Saumya and Jigisha.. were killed in nation capital and the case ultimately  got solved..but  how safe are our loved ones ..if nation capital ain't safe for them...

 5) And last but not the least...my closest blogmate is back to blogging..it's been months that I commented sumfink naughty there as it is my safe heaven .. :P Welcome back Cindy :D ...

Now when you are gone....

Now when you are gone,

I'm called insane.

Now when you are gone.

Tears keep rolling in vain.

Baby, your love kept me high.

I never needed any wings to fly.

but now when you are gone,

dope is all what I now try.

Now when you are gone,

I dream of your lovely eyes.

Now when you are gone,

All I can feel is your sighs.

Baby, your love is all on my mind,

I just keep missing you all the time .

But now when you are gone,

The pain is what I call mine. 

Now when you are gone,

there is a void in my heart.

Now when you are gone,

 life and death are not that apart. 

 -Sourish Karmakar

This was the  song I was scribbling last night. Yeah! watching 'Notting hill' has its effect on broken heart  I hope you like it. I am now composing the rhythm for it. As soon as it materializes, I will upload the composed song in the blog. So you never know , when you will hear me singing. Though I am a horrible singer and the dogs in the neighborhood  will testify for this, but still all my ex(s) loved to hear my lullaby ....

hehehe I kno u r thinking.." yeah that's why they left you moron :D" but anyways ....

This song is dedicated to all the girls who once loved me and then left me alone...May God give them the peace they left me for........

PS: My apologies for the wardrobe malfunction in my template that you might had noticed if ya visited my blog earlier today and yesterday..... I hope this is now sorted once and for all....

Falling in love again....

Yeah! you heard it right ..I am in love again and this time I am sure this love will last long :D
ok ok
No more suspense! :P
I am in love with Britney Spears...the new album, her spirit  and her strength to fight out all controversies to prove that she is a diva ..made me fall in love with her and guys ....she is looking so beautiful.

I kno you will like her too.....
Jus go through the song :)


of course pause the enya song that is being palyed in the Imeem player above :P and then u click it...

Britney Spears - Circus.

There's only two types of people in the world:
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
Well baby, I'm a put on a show kind of girl
Don't like the backseat, gotta be first


I'm like the ringleader
I call the shots (Call da shots)
I'm like a firecracker
I make it hot


When I put on a show
I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break





I'm like a performer
The dance floor is my stage
Better be ready
Hope that you feel the same


All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip everybody gone trip
Just like a circus


Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus


There's only two types of guys out there:
Ones that can hang with me, and ones that are scared
So baby, I hope that you came prepared
I run a tight ship, so beware


I'm like the ringleader
I call the shots (Call da shots)
I'm like a firecracker
I make it hot


When I put on a show
I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break


I'm like a performer
The dance floor is my stage
Better be ready
Hope that you feel the same


All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip everybody gone trip
Just like a circus


Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus


(Lighter Voice)
Let's go!
(Uh, uh, uh, uh, Uh-huh)
Let me see what you can do
(Uh, uh, uh, uh, Uh-huh)
I'm running this
(Like, like, like, like a circus)
Yeah, like a what?
(Like, like, like, like a circus)


(Back to regular voice)
All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip everybody gone trip
Just like a circus


Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus


All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip everybody gone trip
Just like a circus


Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus

What is love ??

 

Last few months especially last few weeks ...I've been to many bloggers and found similar questions ...and I found myself getting linked with all...and was thinking that how could it be possible that every  blogger has a similar pain...and then I remembered my old mantra that all the heartbroken ones are bloggers and orkuteers  :D..but few days back a post in Ne's blog forced me back to thinking  the question I asked above







What is love ?

Love is sense of belonging...that u belong to her and she belongs to u... ( since I'm a male and straight :D  ..I'm writing my views only ..so I love 'her' and 'she' loves me :D) ...

Sometimes it comes with a sense of possessiveness guy like meself love it while others feels it obstruction of their freedom..but that doesn't mean that those guys don't love their lovers...


Priority associated with love is also hard to get...sometime u r on the top priority and sometimes u r not..and that is the reason of feeling the insecurity..

When I was in love for the fst time...it was very tender... no thoughts of vulgarity ever reached my mind..every touch was so tender and so lovely making love' made perfect sense but since I was from a culture which don't recognize sex before marriage..I refrained meself from making love to her as I was so sure that she will be mine sumday and I should respect her virginity till then...and then things changed and we parted and after her leaving the world for me ...things was never the same before...I thought I will never fall in love again..I avoided female company for long but then I was in love again...and I came to know that you can't never ever avoid the feeling of love coming back to u... and the word '

I was fortunate enough to have several loves coming to me sometimes together and sometimes one by one..so was never ever alone..but I had a sense of possessiveness with the high dose of my ugliness which drove away all of then but with my other good factors intact...I have the blessings of love always..and have seen more or less every aspects of love....

Biochemically .. (Can't help..after all I'm doing PhD in it :P )...love is secretion of oxytocin ..a hormone which is triggered by secretion of pheromones from the opposite sex capable of producing the healthy offsprings ...so if the girl is well and she secretes the pheromonesattracts every other boy in vicinity and oxytocin is so strong that it is hard to resist the feelings of cuddliness and these hormones if are sufficiently released in your system you can kill and you can die for the pheromone secreting female...every pheromone have a biochemical signature that only your hormone system can identify....so u r always bonded with the same female and u don't have control because the Oxytocin is similar to drugs and ur body become so needful of that that u become an addict and u can't leave or live without her... more than the others... that

Oxytocin can also triggered with the thoughts but the quantity is less...and since u don't have it enough on ur system u feel the feeling of missing.... and sometimes u keep the token of ur love and keep it close to u so as to have the sense of pheromones from them and u have the butterflies in ur stomach running....so Love is cocaine :)


So ..see.. u r weak from ur body feelings that drove u to love and u r just slave of ur hormones and u call it love the eternal :D....


But wateva the hell I've written above...it is needless to say that I'm always ready to be slave of that hormones ..after all people say drinking, smoking and drugs kills ..but I do them all ..so what's wrongwith the love hormones ..

So love is slavery but I love to be a slave of me mistress....and I know u do too :P

With love....

*picture courtesy : Various websources ..links intact :)*