Please help me :(

I kno new year blog post shudn't be all whining but I m sure U won't feel the tragedy of my life in this comedy  :P..So go and read...oh by the way this post is open to all :P 

So wat do you think I should do??? arranged marriage or love marriage?????.or shud I stay single forever... ??

For those who are gonna suggest me love please explain ( if u ever read the shits I write here :D) after going through my past affairs which are in short as follows

I’ve been dumped by many and these were the last few words of those who claimed they loved me once …

I - left me because I was coward and I din’t had the courage to runaway when I was 18 with her being 18 too..and she was so unhappy with me that she had to give her life for that.

M - left me because I was too possessive and she felt suffocated with my love and attention

P - left me because I thought of being a little less possessive to her to save the relation and she said.. “ Damn! Even one loves their dog  more than wat you do to me.”

B -  Dumped me…hmmm why? I was not faithful as per her or maybe she had her reasons and she went away from my life and sooner she found enough reasons to hate me and eventually shouted out “ I don’t wanna be ur fucking love anymore” and few days before she was so annoyed with my mail that she blasted out “ I am married now " which can be translated as  .. “ don’t bother me anymore...I am happy without you”…coz I know she ain't married... though she never forgets to google her name to come to my blogpage and for that I never lose the hope that one day she might forgive me and we become frnds once more.

S - My old readers might remember that she  was the last one I was seeing… I went to a far town to meet her and the day when I was going to write here about my trip and wonderful date with her..she dumped me …so u never actually got to know about the trip and the girl coz she dumped me before that and her last words were “Why don’t you forgive and forget me??” which can be translated as “ Mujhe maaf karo and bhagwan k liye mera pichha chhor do.”  LoL  and for my firangi frnds the proper words ..can be like…  “stop chasing me for god sake!”. Lol ..I need to stop being a chasing dog every time wen someone dumps me...Oh! She used to love me wen she was just a plain gal but now wen she is a “Gonna be MBA” and as she is a daughter of a veteran Finance guru….I don’t think I come anywhere close to her and her ambitions now..and the other reasons like the ones she said I won’t understand ..so she dint  want to waste her precious time to tell me….

I think I m jinxed!!! Am I ? Shit!!! Now I have to wear stones too :P..but guess wat.. I might have to wear boulders to change my luck coz I doubt those lil stones on my fingers can do anthing except helping me scratch my back……..Oh Shit!!!!! I forgot to tell that I look obnoxious too… I forgot that to mention with the context of S….. S even said to me on our date but I failed to catch those as it were sugar coated and I was too blind with the context of love of loving the inner self, to see that …:P…truly it is hard to find unconditional love :D

First I used to blame the gals for dumping me but I think may be the faulty one is me or wait!!!!!! May be it is correct in saying that even the girls don’t know what they want….(Please refer PS. I love you before suing me :P)..

And by the way!!!! I’ve seen cute boys being chased by beautiful damsels here in blogworld…. why the hell no one chases me … I am single  :P and I kno.. u won’t believe ..I m virgin too….lol …if it helps… :P lol..I need to visit a doc ..I’ve gone crazy… :P

So tell me should I keep looking for the girl made for me or shud I marry one of the gals my mom found for me outta nowhere??? coz I m feeling too alone nowadays….and it hurts a lot wen so many pople leave you to cry and dry out ur love....