Missing your love...

It was Sheena's Aftaar party....I was sitting there gossiping with my friends and rite u guesses gossiping about the hotties in the party, who is wearing what, and how deep and correctly one can estimate the different estimates...suddenly a gal stood in front of me and blocked the site that I was having...

"Sourish! Behave boy ..behave...are u gonna eat that gal alive" she smiled.

It was Ishita.....she was as mesmerising as like always...rite some said..'Love makes u blind'..and her captivating beauty was .... beyond imagination...or may be as because I was in love with her...

"I was not looking at her.",I replied.
"Oh! but ur face is on her shining legs."
"Of course! it is..I was just arranging my hairs,..I thot that was a mirror...Now I kno ..that it's a leg..thanks to u." I giggled.
"Oh my silly boy". She laughed and kissed my cheeks.

She was a gal whom I always admired..as she always took everything lightly ..even my oogling ...
and she was as loving as always..she was never jealous of any one ..may be because she knew that I love her beyond anything or may be because wen she was in front of me even if the world go upside down I never looked anything beyond her serene face.

" You are Late...again sweetheart" she smiled.
" Sorry! U know na I m so far from punctual" I winked.
" Ahh! don't be sorry..I just came 5 minutes earlier. I thought I was late."


I kissed her before she uttered anything more...

I was there half an hour before the scheduled time in the restaurant just across the Archies shop in which we decided to meet. We used to do on every saturday bunking our tutions..and then we used to go on to different places..u can call them funny dates....coz she used to spend and I used to have fun. That day too she came on time like she always as I knew she was punctual unlike me. But I let her wait..so that I can see whether she comes just 5-10 minutes before as like always she told me and as I suspected she lied like always just that I don't feel sorry about coming late...Watching her waiting was so lovely..she used glare at her watch every 30 seconds..and then she used to impatiently caress her hairs...I knew always that she hates latecomers..but she never ever complained anything about that...

" Sourish! u r supposed to do something.", she cried in my arms.
" I m just in B. Tech first year." I murmered.
" So wat! we can marry. We are legal..at least I am." she sobbed uncontrollably," I don't wanna marry some jerk even if my parents kill me."


She slept there in my lap. She woke up startled jus minutes later just to feel me so that she can kno m there and then she slept again..her dove black eyes were swollen ..may be that's why she felt asleep and I continued caressing her hairs. She was there sleeping for 2 hours...and then I kissed her awake..she left without uttering any word and that was the last time I was with her.


That silence still screams. 3 days later she was forced to marry a NRI jerk and 10 months later, I got her mail explaining why she left for another world leaving me in this world alone and shattered.. I wud had joined her in another world then only but....
Yesterday night I dreamt her.. after so many years..yet her love and beauty was as fresh as it was then..

Ishita ..this post is dedicated to u . I won't aplogize as I kno u always hate me apologizing to u...yet I always thought that can't get rid of the guilt if I don't...but now I think I don't want to apologize to u because I don't wanna get rid of the guilt anemore coz with this guilt ..I feel u everytime close to me... I love u and I miss u...