Please Help..... I m scared......

Now it was the turn of Assam....Figures says 68 or more died due to the serial bombing which shook the capital of Assam yesterday at daylight...and once again we proved that how incompetent we are to stop the so called Jehadis...

And I truly believe it's the work of HuJI, and may be ULFA aided them with the other support...and when the govt. thot the had broken the back of Indian Mujahiddin... the jehadis struck again....and this time with RDX instead of the crude Ammonium Nitrate...with a timer device..terrorism is changing it's face and now it's becoming more tech savvy...and we are still living in the old age era wen we talk abt the protection...

Today I was discussing, how this regionalism and this castism is eating up...I sumhow feel to blame the freedom fighters who freed us..coz we are so coward and so accustomed to be tamed... that we seriously need a marshal law to learn to leave in solidarity....

Last day , NDTV survey said that 89% of population think ..these bomb blast have changed our lifestyle...yeah I do agree...coz I m so scared to go in crowded place and the temples...God know when they will struck again and where...

I m scared....

Guess that my blog is becoming all political ..it ain't the lake of my dreams any more...coz I m so scared only the nightmares are coming and I can't avoid myself to write and support the souls of the departed...I can't write or read or concentrate....at least when my brothers are being killed in my own homeland...

It's similar to the child abuse...yeah it is....when the home isn't safe where shud I run and hide wen m so scared...If I don't have anyone to whom I can cry for help..it is worse than dying...coz dying scared and for nothing isn't my dream....

God bless the soul of the departed and help the wounded to recover fast and give them the strength to carry on...

Please help!!.. I am scared.....................

Festivity and Rape of modesty

It was a fun filled festive season....and as usual Diwali was awesome...most of the India was rejoicing the festival...even I did...Burnt loads of crackers ..brought loads of sweets and distributed them and worshiped god..the light was awesome...the otherwise clouded sky was sparkling with lights ......

But.....

A guy was shot dead in Mumbai..coz he had a gun in his hand and he fired few rounds in Air and wanted to meet the police commissioner to plead for the mistreatment of Biharis by MNS.
He repeatedly shouted ..I don't want to harm anyone but he was labeled as a terrorist who was there to kill Mr. Raj Thackeray who is now enjoying Z plus security..the guy never held any stick in his hand..but he ended up dead in a police encounter by Mumbai Police..those Police who never thought to intervene wen MNS gundas were hitting the examinees and destroying properties and killed so may innocent money earners of the poor families...oh btw this is the same Police underwhose supervision the underworld wid loads of guns was dwelling for year...and today i read in paper that the guy had internal injuries too....so he was beaten up and then he was killed???

Dharamdev Rai, a young man from Gorakhpur, Uttar Pradesh died.... after he was severely beaten on a train in Badlapur in Maharashtra. He was on his way home to Gorakhpur for Diwali. So what the fuck Mumbai Police is doing now???


Yesterday only... 5 women were burnt alive coz they havn't paid dowry and of course blame was that the odd rocket flew in and hit the cylinder and it burst and only those women got hurt ..rest all were out of their house just on that time..wat a coincidence ....

Two girls below the age of 8 were molested by Diwali celebraters coz right to drink and fuck is included in this festival's brochure...

God knows! but seriously modesty is gone from India..Those fucking bastards have raped it and scared it away...coz that guy died for a reason and we were busy celebrating Diwali...and we are so fucking sick that we take this festival as an excuse and a mean to do the crime.......

A very Happy Diwali!

Lamps of human life got extinguished and we are here celebrating festival of lamps......but you kno we deserve to celebrate coz we had lost our courage to fight much before and now we lost our conscience too....but why shudn't we..we are so away from guilt ..it surely asks for a celebration as in real who the fuck cares.. if we get beaten up yesterday in some odd place coz we dared to thought India is still one single country and we are all united even in diversity...

FUC*TARDS...

I was so happy in the morning..I woke up early..made my breakfast ..french toast and coffee and then i picked up today's newspaper and then I got pissed off.....

what the hell happened to India..

Few days back I was talking to my frnds discussing why India can never have civil wars....but that Guy who term himself New builder of the state of Maharashtra...Proved me all wrong....

Racism...A word which everybody hoped wud go obsolete soon..but I guess MNS party chief Mr. Raj Thankerey proved us all wrong...wat a sick way to gain publicity...thrashing up examinees .. those were students who prepared for years to get a chance to live their livelyhood and wat those fucking morons of Maharashtra did..they killed them...



And wat the fuck govt. doing....they are busy ringing their hanging dongs....fucking shit..If they don't give protection to people in thier own country which they claims to be soveriegn ..I think they better move their ass outside the chair....They were not even able to held him in lockup for more than a day....see how worse India's political and judicial system is...

and this is not it.....even some southern states are killing people on the name of religion...and then they curse muslims for terrorism.. fuck they are the worst terrorists..burning people alive is the most dreaded crime...think abt how u feel wen u touch a hot object ...and then think if u r on fire bound in a tyre which melts and stick to ur skin like a jelly and burns ..ripping ur skin off slowly and even if u reach the hospital..u will die of pain and infection....

Fuck! wat Hppened to Indians?...the country which coined the term non voilence and was thought to bring solidarity in the region is busy fucking it's own ass...and wat we are doing ?? we are bringing those fucking retards to power in politics...who can even let the minority to rape their mother coz that will apease their votebanks....

Kick and kill all those bastards...the govt. shud impose martial law and fucking shoot these guys in head so that they won't think of killing innocents in the name of publicity...

Im just so sorry for the people who are suffering ...May god give them power to heal up their wounds and bless the soul of the departed......

:(

Mera aaj skool khula hua hai :(


meany weany VC said..

This sunday the schools will be opened too :(

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :'(


Oh btw ..the latest episode of smallville...was awesome and guess wat Lois Lane loves Clark Kent and she confessed it in the action packed episode...wow...it was so lovely....

muaaaaaah

The trip back home

Last week, I went home... after 4 months ...ok! mom was here jus few days back..but I was not in home na! So 4 months :P..So I went for Durgapuja. ...taking leave for absence for 5 days...

The trip was lovely..I saved a lot of bucks during the travel. I was supposed to travel by AC but instead I went in Sleeper, I was supposed to catch a Taxi but I caught the autos and busses instead...so I think now m becoming more n more economical...good na...i don't kno if the current depression continues ..it won't be long wen I have to use the money i saved :P...okay not so economical..i purchased a brand new RayBan Shades...


I've a very strong passion for beautiful women and shades...So I saved my tour expenses to get a new Rayban and added it to my shades collection...

So start of the trip was economical..but it was jinxed too coz I havn't paid full fare to the auto rickshaw guy coz he inserted more passenger than the numbers he was allowed to take in...so i paid him12 instead of 15 ..and may be that's why my tour got jinxed and everywhere I tried to save my bucks..it sumhow got spent up and I overdid my budget..but i will mange...

Mom n dad were as usual very pleased to get home for the puja celebrations but the surprising more was the fact that my tour was well planned and in 6 days I had to visit 5 girls ..lol

I was surprised myself..coz noone told me about it...but I got the explanation that mom n dad are not pleased with my disheveled life ..so they want a caretaker for me...

So alongside the celebrations ..i had to visit gals...2 of them I knew..coz they are family friends...but I ver knew that those two hotties who never gave me any atention during my rising hormones level age..was keen and interested to marry me...rest the three were mom's frnd's daughters..and it was hell embarassing...lol

and guess wat one of the girl's parents were so interested that they started pressing for an early marraige...and i was like..." mom m i not too young to marry :-/ "

But it was fun ....at least I had a nice time with 4 out of the  5 hotties..

except the one who started fighting even before we started to talk freely...  

but sumhow I liked her more than the other..may be i do like Junglee billis (wild cats) like our Don :P but m not gonna marry as usual...coz wateva u say m too young to be thrown into ocean of responsibilities.....

Then on the 7 th day..I moved to my sister's home...as she had a major computer glitch..so the the evening  that day ..I spent sleeping on her computer table while the system was being formatted and reloaded.

And on the 8th day I returned back to here...and the return journey was cool...I had to share the seat with a beautiful girl ..coz she dint got reservation..so i offered her the seat in my berth....and she happily obliged,,,and I did got her phone number and as usual I won't dial :D

So it was a pleasure trip with loads of gals, food and of course the parental affection....and I m so home sick now :(

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Afta all there is some hope

Two beautiful events marked my yesterday to be a very refreshing one..

and the effects are still so beautiful even today too...

The first event was that I had over 90 minutes talks with my ex gf (ex is the word I kno she hates to be addressed with..but wat I can say...she is not going to marry me :p ) and that too without fights and we kissed each other goodnight on fone..and that too after a long gap.... may be months had passed...and we sang each other loads of songs...Ok singing bird was me...I started first on her request...then I got mood to sing for more than 40 minutes :P...lol
and we talked till quarter to 4 and it is very much against the present rule that I m having early to bed and early to rise..but her lovely voice vanished all my tiredness and I had a merrier sleep after a long time..I miss her ..but rite now I have taken her studies and career as important issues..so she is free to choose a life path afterwards..I m not gnna marry soon...but all ready propositions are on table for me too..but currently I've stalled them for laters....


The next event is the stability of the market..though I kno that millions of employees are being sacked all over the world...but I am sure the current market situation is going to improve a lot a near future as it is tumbling not because of the financial crisis but because the rumors and heavy sell off by frightened shareholders...but I believe that market is gonna be stable soon with the current confidence building measures by all over the world and I m happy that after a long term the globalisation phenomenon is showing its compassion.

Shubho Bijoya and Happy Dussehra

A very happy Dussehra and Shubho Bijoya toh all my readers..
May God Bless u a long and prosperous life..

Let's all Pray together...

असतो माँ सद्गमय
तमसो माँ ज्योतिर्गमय
मृत्योरमाँ अमृतं गमय.

God !
Let me to truth from lies
Let me to light from Darkness
Let me to immortality from the death.

Missing your love...

It was Sheena's Aftaar party....I was sitting there gossiping with my friends and rite u guesses gossiping about the hotties in the party, who is wearing what, and how deep and correctly one can estimate the different estimates...suddenly a gal stood in front of me and blocked the site that I was having...

"Sourish! Behave boy ..behave...are u gonna eat that gal alive" she smiled.

It was Ishita.....she was as mesmerising as like always...rite some said..'Love makes u blind'..and her captivating beauty was .... beyond imagination...or may be as because I was in love with her...

"I was not looking at her.",I replied.
"Oh! but ur face is on her shining legs."
"Of course! it is..I was just arranging my hairs,..I thot that was a mirror...Now I kno ..that it's a leg..thanks to u." I giggled.
"Oh my silly boy". She laughed and kissed my cheeks.

She was a gal whom I always admired..as she always took everything lightly ..even my oogling ...
and she was as loving as always..she was never jealous of any one ..may be because she knew that I love her beyond anything or may be because wen she was in front of me even if the world go upside down I never looked anything beyond her serene face.

" You are Late...again sweetheart" she smiled.
" Sorry! U know na I m so far from punctual" I winked.
" Ahh! don't be sorry..I just came 5 minutes earlier. I thought I was late."


I kissed her before she uttered anything more...

I was there half an hour before the scheduled time in the restaurant just across the Archies shop in which we decided to meet. We used to do on every saturday bunking our tutions..and then we used to go on to different places..u can call them funny dates....coz she used to spend and I used to have fun. That day too she came on time like she always as I knew she was punctual unlike me. But I let her wait..so that I can see whether she comes just 5-10 minutes before as like always she told me and as I suspected she lied like always just that I don't feel sorry about coming late...Watching her waiting was so lovely..she used glare at her watch every 30 seconds..and then she used to impatiently caress her hairs...I knew always that she hates latecomers..but she never ever complained anything about that...

" Sourish! u r supposed to do something.", she cried in my arms.
" I m just in B. Tech first year." I murmered.
" So wat! we can marry. We are legal..at least I am." she sobbed uncontrollably," I don't wanna marry some jerk even if my parents kill me."


She slept there in my lap. She woke up startled jus minutes later just to feel me so that she can kno m there and then she slept again..her dove black eyes were swollen ..may be that's why she felt asleep and I continued caressing her hairs. She was there sleeping for 2 hours...and then I kissed her awake..she left without uttering any word and that was the last time I was with her.


That silence still screams. 3 days later she was forced to marry a NRI jerk and 10 months later, I got her mail explaining why she left for another world leaving me in this world alone and shattered.. I wud had joined her in another world then only but....
Yesterday night I dreamt her.. after so many years..yet her love and beauty was as fresh as it was then..

Ishita ..this post is dedicated to u . I won't aplogize as I kno u always hate me apologizing to u...yet I always thought that can't get rid of the guilt if I don't...but now I think I don't want to apologize to u because I don't wanna get rid of the guilt anemore coz with this guilt ..I feel u everytime close to me... I love u and I miss u...