Acedia...

*The following article has disturbing images*

I was sitting in a park staring the dried fallen leaf and thinking
What is it feeling? What if she ain't lifeless??? What if she ain't devoid of feelings?? Is she feeling the same agony of being helpless as I m and thinking about what will happen tomorrow??Is she fearing that she would be under thousands feet .. or under screeching tires.. or burnt to ashes or may be just picked up by a lil boy and stay immortal forever in between the pages of his diary..
I picked it up and she stays in my diary..and wen i feel hopeless i just take her out and talk to her..
"Lady..I picked you up..tell me will sumday sumone will take me out of the trash "

This is a true story..coz that boy was me when I was 12 ...but can't you identify urself with the feelings of the boy..it is the feeling that everybody faces ..that's despair, helplessness and unhappiness towards life due to discontent and dissatisfaction...

And if you can identify with the boy..then my dear friends u r committing one of the most deadly sin and that's Acedia...or sloth...or in simple feeling discontent and dissatisfied with god and his creations..

Acedia was regarded as one of the deadliest sin after vanity coz if ur feelings are engrossed in Acedia than u can be easily motivated to commit other sins, as most of the sins are committed either by vain or by a depressed..

So depression due to dissatisfaction is a sin, and if u r dissatisfied, don't curse the god coz u ain't his disciple any more..u r moving towards the Antigod.

So now the common questions arises..

I am facing the world upside down, then also I am a sinner ??Do u know what I am going through?? Do you know what god has taken from me and gave nothing but despair ?? Can you imagine how tough is the life widout my dear ones ??

So before answering..let's go through these..


A man searching for help, his kid is in pain with a splinter injury due to heavy rocket bombardment. Yeah! I am talking about the common condition in war torn Palestine and Iraq.

She was a ten years old girl, she was lying there unconscious coz just now the war heroes who had won the area satisfied their lust by raping her..

She is 23 years old women crying in pain..coz just now the rioteers had raped her and torn her womb and taken out her unborn baby and torched that embryo in front of her before torching her too.

He is 3 year old boy, he can't say what he witnessed but he is hell scared. Some terrorist came there and in the name of the god shot his father and raped his mother before stuffing her mouth and slits they had carved with their knives wid gunpowder and torched her alive.

She is 30, she lives in place that even god had left years ago, with baby in her hands thoroughly malnourished, searching for food and water. May be if not today she wud be lucky in a week if she get sumthing to eat, but she is in dilemma that wat she do with her lil baby crying in her arms

She is a 17 year old girl..she lives in a orphanage run by a prestigious NGO..Now she is being sold to every other day to new customers who romp her body for their carnal pleasure.

He was caught when he was 11 trying to steal food and convicted to a juvenile detention centre and since then for 4 years he is beaing raped by the jailors and other wardboys.

She in 28, she wants to read but she can't, she wants to roam outside free but she can't, she was raped thrice in last two months but cudn't convict anyone of the crime coz the court needed four witnesses. Yeah! she was raped by 5, but alas! none of them wanted to be a witness..so they were set free and she was raped again...Welcome to Afghanistan...

She was 32, a happily married devoted lady for last 9 years, yesterday her husband told her that he is HIV positive and she took her results and found her to be HIV positive too..

Can you identify with any of them??

If you can't, then why are you in despair and dissatisfaction coz ur boss has kicked ur ass.. or ur bf/gf left you ....or you are not able to find a suitable guy/gal to live happily with..or ur parents left you in this world alone but leaving enough to get you to an internet connection for reading this article or u still have sumone to care for who is trying his or her best to give you a good upbringing..

So stay happy my friend and get over Acedia my friend, the world is still wonderful for you..and if you can't find the happiness.. u r a sinner coz u carve for more than wat u already have and this carving will never end ...

*The photos(freely available in net ) may not have specific resemblance to the facts but they were used to show the agony. Any resemblance to the dead or living is purely coincidental and is regretted*