Flashback.......

* Contents are volatile and need discretion. Underage readers please avoid this "

She was lying there  amidst her loved ones and then...her whole life just started flashing before her...

She remembered how lively girl she was...

who always aspired to be a lawyer..jus like her aunt...she remembered how everyone in the family were so proud of her that she is the brightest among the lot...until that day ...

She remembered just getting out of her bath...

the door bell rang...she was alone so she peeped from the keyhole to see her uncle coming back from office early...she hurriedly opened the door...he asked for a cup of tea ..she went to kitchen..but uncle soon changed her plan from relishing the tea to ravishing his niece...

She was just 14 and she didn't knew why her uncle was touching her..and she thought it might be the care and affection he had for her..so she silently stood there while her uncle started doing his work...she didn't understand any of these untill  she started ...to bleed .......and then she started crying....her uncle left after she got unconscious .

In the evening , she told her mother and she was greeted with a slap and then she tried telling to her father and to her utter dismay he rejected it altogether.. then she went to her aunt and after she heard that her husband raped her niece ..the aunt filed a complaint against this and immediately filed for divorce.

She remembered how every lawyer tried to outrage her modesty and when her aunt began to loose the separately filed divorce case due to lack of witnesses as per the rule of having four..she changed her divorce appeal from rape to adultery and there she was defenseless as her lawyer accepted that her niece and her husband were having an affair and she was granted divorce as the little girl, who didn't knew what will be the outcome trusted her aunt , agreed that she didn't protest and the uncle did ravished her . The rapist was acquitted.

She stood in silence when she heard that uncle was set free but she was ordered to be lashed naked in public. she cried and looked to her aunt but her aunt herself was responsible for the result as she wanted the divorce and she got that with her niece getting lashed.

She remembered how she was stripped off her clothes and lashed in public with everyone cheering the event and some even threwing stones towards her. She was admitted to hospital and then  freed after a week .

She started remembering about the event of last night. Her father was fighting with her mother and all she can heard was the word dishonor. After that it was silent for an hour before she heard knocking at her door. She opened the door to find her mother who hugged her hard and started crying and then she saw an arm gripping her fragile arm to take her away from her mother. The arm was of her father and before she can understand anything she saw her uncle with the gun. She tried to free herself and started crying out loud calling her mother to save her but found her mother crying and hurriedly shutting her mouth with her hand. The last hope was of her , her mother was gripping her mouth so that she can't cry out loud and her father was gripping her hard so that she can't escape, and the uncle with the gun pointing at her heart shouting

" It is needed for the honor. God forgive me "

And then everything started disappearing ...the pain subsided with the numbness taking over and soon it was all blank...

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This post is dedicated to all the women who are victim of the religionism and human's cruelty. I just pray to god that people unite against it soon so that more girls and women don't die in such pain , embarrassment and injustice just in the name of honor.

This will lighten u up..

 ** underage  readers plz avoid this **

A young couple is golfing one day on a very exclusive course lined with million-dollar houses. On the third tee, the wife slices her shot right through the large front window of the biggest house along the course. They walk up, knock on the door, and hear a voice say, “Come on in.” Opening the door, they see glass everywhere and a broken bottle lying on the floor.

A man on the couch says, “Are you the people who broke my window?” The husband begins to apologize, but the man cuts him off. “Actually, I want to thank you—I’m a genie who was trapped in that bottle, and your wayward shot released me. I’m allowed to grant three wishes, so what I’d like to do is give each of you one wish, and I’ll keep the last one for myself.”

“Fantastic!” says the husband. “I want a million dollars a year for the rest of my life.”
“No problem,” says the genie, “it’s the least I could do. And you, ma’am, what do you want?”
“I want a house in every country in the world,” says the wife.
“Consider it done,” the genie replies, turning back to the man. “And now for my wish. Because I’ve been trapped in that bottle, I haven’t had sex in a really long time. My wish is to sleep with your wife.”

The husband takes a long look at his wife and says, “Well, we did get a lot of money and all those houses. If you don’t mind, honey, I don’t either.”

The wife agrees, and the genie takes her upstairs, where he ravishes her for three hours. After he’s through, the genie rolls over, looks at the wife, and asks, “How old is your husband, anyway?”
“Thirty-five,” she replies.
“And he still believes in genies?”

Not much to say...

A chapter ended in my life...and the sweet memories are now locked in me...

I don't know what I will do kno...but drinking and driving sounds a good option rest I leave to almighty to decide..that wat was my fault...??

Why he did this to me...all I did was to love someone more than him...yeah I kno now ...wat is the fault so see...I kno I loved her more than the almighty and now he is making me suffer...but better get rid of this suffering now only ..coz up and above..wen one day she will return back there..I won't listen to craps she will have for me then..coz then I won't leave her to anyone....

This life of urs is urs my love...but the next  be sure of it...I won't let you give it to anyone else....

Love and Luck

Goodbye

PS: 17-12-2008......I am not dead..or not I want to commit suicide..coz if I m dead...it is of no use to either of us....So I am alive..I kno u ppl are concerned..but sumtimes I do get crappy.....and believe me I will gather my shits...I am not new in the heartbroken thingy....even Gum companies have placed their bids to make me their brand ambassador....with the tag line...Look at his broken heart..we seal that too :D

Mumbai Attack and my views on aftermath

*** Author is not showing disrespect to victims of Mumbai..and if they feel so at any point..they have his apologies***
As we all know about the recent terror attack on soil of India...and it was interesting to note that this time India took a real hard stance against terrorism,...thanks to the Lashkar team for the beautiful attack pattern that showed how India is incapable of fighting the current terrorism format and it's weakness towards the hostage crisis scenarios.

Yeah! I do salute the martyrs who laid down their life to protect more civilian dead than already the POLICE figure of some 190 dead...which is in actual a much larger than what is being shown...and u don't have to be a RAW analyst to get that info...it always had been like this only...

But don't you think this was an utter failure...NSG people came late...because of Aviation crisis...and lack of equipments....Half of the ATS top brass was busy investigating Malegao scandal while more than thousand are dead in separate bombing cases in recent months...but they are busy scratching their nose over some political connection in that blast....so what will happen if they find out anything...In India no politician was ever tried or convicted of riots and all.....and  even if they are convicted ...they compare themselves with likes of Mahatma Gandhi for serving jail times..


And what we got ..we got stringent laws ..reenactment of likes of POTA... in another form...where they are being given rights to detain a person for more than a year without putting the charge-sheet on grounds of suspicion alone...now who gives them the right to do so...I am not in favour of this..coz this is another form of dictatorship..they need to take permission of judiciary to take action otherwise it will be another tyranny and another form of terrorism...u must be remembering wat happened in Tamil nadu to Karunanidhi..how he was dragged into jail and it was all POTA used for political connection...and also it would be weapon against minorities who are always dragged into suspicion for practicing the religion of which the most terrorists belong..though I am in favor of this law as it enables action against terrorists but I've seen such uses of these type of Laws by military in dispute regions valley and north east..and believe me people are not happy...so we need to upscale our judiciary and have a control over this Nationalized agency that govt. is bringing in picture following US recommendation and may be watching a few movies....
But let's wait...for the full picture to come and you will see then how this is used...they may keep me too in custody for a year coz I get wrong numbers from gulf and openly voiced out my opposition to them...and believe me ..if this post is deleted and I m out for long..I am in there custody...that's wat this law means.....

Now REFORM INDIA... a platform which sprang out after Mumbai attacks is bringing the voice of all of India against it's current situation and I seriously encourage this mission of theirs...but  ..Look at the picture that I took out from that site about the recent visitors at 10:30 IST...look the dots (visitors) from US side and compare it with visitors from India...surprisingly wat I found out is we Indians are not actually much contributing the platform but most of the people are NRIs...
Yeah NRIs are do entitled to show concern about India....but fact is shouting from another country about conditions in India is quite easy than actually living it...and if they seriously love their country so much why they are giving their own efforts to develop another country...this is not a war against NRIs....but this ...one need to understand... u can't really count on the voices of people who don't vote for Indian government when u are talking about the reforms....so if their experience with FBI is good then they shud not think that same thing can happen in India too ...we don't need the pity..we need support and they can't give that via web forums they need to come down and support..they need to practice their options to vote..

And about citizens of Mumbai...they have shown the best courage to march out rallies ...No disrespect to the victims of the tragedy...but don't you think so that these people who are now talking about reforms kept mum when their brothers from other states were being bitten and killed because of their slogan Amchi Mumbai...???
When they were killing poeples of their own country in their Mumbai....wen students were being beaten up as they dared to give examination there thinking that this is their country too ...Wat the Mumbaikers did.??..They silently supported them....Where were the rallies then..huh???? It is so true that wen one's ass is on fire then only one search for the fire extinguisher...otherwise even if whole nation is burnt down in front of one's eye...one won't shout coz Amchi place is safe..and this is not applicable to Mumbai only...it is applicable to all of you who have this slogan on mind .." The show must go on"


Get over it buddy....u need to stop the show..coz  ur show sucks and it is time for a new show...if u want to reform India...don't go for website propaganda or rallies ..use ur brains to elect good people and go and motivate the people in slums and villages towards nation interest and much above get over this Regionalism...

If u think u can shout on blogs and influence the other minds ..u are a fool...coz a person who can blog.. is socially enough aware to need ur influence...so go and spread it on the streets...at least I tried so...and I need u to try it too...coz sitting in an AC room with a laptop and WiFi...u are actually ignorant about the fact that it is not you who elects the govt. ...it is the poverty of more than half of the population of India which decides on who will rule them for 5 years for just a few pieces of bread ..not even enough for a month supply.. 
Get it in your head.....


Aneways....u keep on shouting...at least u might have the self satisfaction that u did took part in this Reform thingy..
Keep amusing urself.....and wait for the next blast...coz u will again have the opportunity to say " The show must go on"  and believe me or not...it is we who are giving the terrorist their much needed fame and promoting the terrorism....coz wen we shout in open against country's policies they see how scared we are..

A Cute love letter........

Dear Karen,

If you're reading this, it means I

actually worked up the courage to mail it.

So, good for me.

You don't know me very

well but you get me started,

I have a tendency to go on and on

about how hard the writing is for me.

But this...

this is the hardest thing

I've ever had to write.

There's no easy way to say

this, so I'll just say it.

I met someone. It was an accident.

I wasn't looking for

it. I wasn't on the make.

It was a perfect storm. She

said one thing. I said another.

Next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest

of my life in the middle of that conversation.

now there's this feeling in my gut.

She might be the one........

She's completely nuts...

in a way that makes me

smile -- 

highly neurotic...A great deal of maintenance required.

She is you, Karen.

That's the good news.

The bad is that I don't know

how to be with you right now.

And it scares the shit out of me.

Because if I'm not with you right now, 

I have this feeling we'll get lost out there.

It's a big, bad world

full of twists and turns,

and people have a way of

blinking and missing the moment...

the moment that could've

changed everything.

I don't know what's going on with us,

and I can't tell you why you should waste

a leap of faith on the likes of me...

but, damn, you smell good .....

like home.

And you make excellent coffee.

That's got to count

for something, right?

Call me.

Unfaithfully yours, 

Hank Moody.

This is a beautiful letter...that sported out in the end of a cute series called as "Californication."..and I loved it beyond any word and beyond any expression.............

Need I to mention....that I am Back....................???