Y me ???? God!!!! Y me ???

The night seems to be so long..now these days. Few days back.. I used to boast amout my nocturnal features. Remaining awake till long some times 3 ..some times 4..some time the whole night in her company.... and still da morning remained as fresh as ever....never felt da sleepiness in my eyes...dere was always da dream dat floated ..da life was as calm as da mid ocean..serene but as deep as it is...the birds chirping had itz own music ..da floating clouds made itz shape even in pitch dark..da starry skies felt me to search her name in dem and believe me i fonder it all times when i had my fixament in da vide of da vast sky filled wid twinkling stars.
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Now da days are changing..even da soir is not my own..not even da night which always calmed me soothed me in her arms..She said her hopes are all me...and she cant wait till long..may be she will leave soon to my dearest god....who always envied my possessions..and snatching dem before i can hav it complete in my arms.Dis time is not so different either...
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Please god! I m not gonna fight wid ya dis time..i m ready to leave my claim on her..but please give her strength to carry on..please don take her wid ya..at least let me feel dis time dat u r wid me..I love her..so i love you too..please god let me fulfill her hopes dis time..give her little strengths to carry on..please god I love her like anything..still i cudn't muster da sought courage to accept dat..please god at least dis time dont take my love wid ya..oderwise m coming to you too...den be ready to answer me..and da question is all u kno .
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Y me???
God!!!!!!! Y me???